~~_sI.hUi_~~

my sOrRy PoSt`

2006-06-01T16:03:00.000+08:00

fOr this post today,
i just wanna say sOrry tO 2 ppl & a grP of girls:-
(i) JiEyI
(ii) jUstIna
(iii) jOan.xUaN.vOnNe.rInA & tAm

JiEyI
firstly, happy birthday tO u!
sOrry fOr nt been able to join u and the gang for dinner tonite
i koe it is a special nite fOr u!
happy 18 birthday!
enJoY the dInner!

jUsTiNa
dui bu qi~
ytd actually say want meet yOu to go sch tgt.
but then, i met my fren earlier.
den need to rush to meet him den canOt wait fOr u!
sOrRy~

jOaN.xUan.vOnNe.rInA.tAm
sOrry nv gO out with u girls ytd.
chionging for my tests. =(
i promise nxt time sure turn up de =)
*cheers*

music : CSS - By nOw`

ok back to my ~~own~~ blogging.
tests are on this week
first, mon was for Building Sc.
it was olright actually, hopefully can get at least a 60%
i hope*

gOt CADD aka mircostation on tues,
it was a ~~shyting~~ paper and a ~~shyting~~ day!
i mus empasis on the word shyt" cus it is d*** shyt!
first sumone gave me attitude like i owe her money!
dun wan teach den dun teach lar..
say i nv pay attention in class.
preston asked her sumting..she tok to him like gf and bf toking.
what the shyt!
den alicia ask her, she oso giv abit of attitude
what the F***!
nv see such a person in SP before.
what up next, i tripped and fall while gOin to take alan's bag.
hais. now knee cap is red!! argh!!

wed had ECTP.
is her again! she is _____. fill in ur blanks.
blaming us for the things we nv did.
giving info that is nt clear.
i dun care..i m jus bomming ~~mad~~ that i stare at her
i was like WTF!
why mus she put the blame that is us and nt her favourite ppl making the noise.
d*** her!

tOday we had Law'
shud be ok.
but then i really duno if i had make a mistake in offer & accpetance.
=let fate decide.
i am still bOOming ~~mad~~ with her.
hmm.
PMS again=x

had pizza hut in sch
with the 12 of us.
me.alica.bel.shuhui.ting.lizhen.lurvies.adeline
alan.chifoong.munchee.preston
total bill : $105.20 =)
laming ard after lunch, as usual.
cracking jokes!
bel oso as usual that innocent when we tOk abt tHose yellow jOkes=x
hahas.

last paper tmr.
Building materials.
let's gambatte!!
*smell the scent of holiday drooling nearby*
its me n my birthday=x

hais.
will it be a unforgetable one??
o.O

wishing that the 12 of us to be tgt again.
maybe is due to test week and we are separated.
maybe i m tOo sensitive abt it.
we are always tgt for lunch =)

is the k-box session still on?

is me n myself.all alone*

2006-05-26T16:21:00.000+08:00

3 more days to my TERM test.

drowned in the pool of mixed feelings :-
happiness & sadness.

a rather short day today
sch suppose to start at 8 and ends at 12
but my 2 dearest CS & ECTP lecturers let us off early.
first lesson - Communication Skill.
due to role-play assessment rehearsal,
i had my CS lesson start at 845 near 9.
and Mr Tang, my ECTP lecturer let us off at 11 =)

had lunch at FC 4.
bowling with jun n aaron.
today seems to be one of my suckiest day
5 games in total.
the marks read,
73.75.107.73.95
wat the hell.
maybe i just cant get myself focus during the game
imagine 4 straight zerOs in the first game
hais.

i am nt even paying attention in class during ECTP ytd
had a urge to draw
so i lifted up my pencil and began to draw
my inspiration ran away as if it got scare away`
search in the inspiration page
but didnt get anythIng thru my mind
once again,
sihui stay focus!!
argh~!

i wan dO lots of shopping since GSS is here in town again!! =)

dun be such a childish fre*k!

bless me*

2006-05-22T22:53:00.000+08:00

it another day wasted
i shud be studying and not gOin online chatting with my frens.
hais.
tests are just round the corner
and i really duno how many times i had been saying that.

Law is gettin on fine for me.
just had to memorise the case studies like mad.
it is worst than Social Studies !!
ECTP i m slacking away
in class, me n bel were keep joking and luffing
even alan & junhao cant bear with the laughter behind them -.-"
i am able to understand materials better..
duno why either.
maybe this is the result of last-min revision??

CADD is still a prob faced by me..
maybe failing this module.
i haven finish my floor plan!!
ARGH!
which suppose to due tmr!
oh my gOd!!
i am a failure in Microstation!

talking abt poly life and stuff with dCyL.
searching thru my sketch bOok
i found thEsE drawing which i drew under stress from N lvl then.
but i found 1 that i like the most

i koe to some, it is not nice..
but i just draw out of boredoM.

tmr gOna be a long day for me
extra lessons on LAW~
bowling in the evening
i need my plenty sleep`

Ling & Just planned to go sakae for our Outing..
miss LingWei much much!!
=X
when is it arhs?

not forgettin my date(s) with Yvonne, Jess & RainbOw`=)
<3 u gAls!

sHoOtIng sTaRs~!
*praying fOr...*

2006-05-17T19:40:00.000+08:00

seeing my target is so near yet so far ..
100 points!!

well, had training ytd nite and the nite before at CDANS Bukit Gombak
hit my own record at 111 on Mon & 101 ytd.
it is like a finally thing..=)
hopefully i can mantain this marks =)

term tests are coming, and this is the upteems time i had been saying yet i had not even touch on anything yet..
2 weeks down the road.. having term test!!
aRgH!!
relax..cool down!!
Building Sc.Building Materials.CADD.Law & ECTP.
5 of them. only gt confident in ECTP & Building Science.
aRgH!!

had my hair cut today.
with xL at northpoint'
sapphire all present that includes Jiayi.
my new hairstyle is like a combination of sotong head & mushroom
*sad*

Jieyi think my hair is too mature for my face
while i felt that the proportion is not right..
maybe after a haircut is like that.
a few days later, it will be better ;)

Alan and guys bet on 4d tonite.
alan bought my age n his age combine.
and guess wad is the number tat open out.
1273.
numbers jump!!
but anyway, alan bought 1823 & 2318
shud have bought 17 since my birthday had nt over!!
argh!!
nvm..but the guys are hoping on the match tonight.
ARSENAL VS BARC.

2am.
MC,Alan,Foong,me, Huda & Jun gonna wake up and watch it
since lessons only start at 10 tmr.
haha..
who shall crown the title??
we shall see!!!

it is that hurtful when u wish me,
happy breakup 1 mth!
i dun feel happy but more hurt that ever'

2006-05-13T11:18:00.000+08:00

during IDEA presentation:

mUnCheE's pHoTo fInaLlY rEvEaL! =x

mE`like constipating!=x

tInG.DaJiE`

LOOK ALIKE?? nv pay attention to presentation!!
PreStOn & JiAn LiaNg

At sEouL gArdEN

tInG.jUn.hUi

2006-05-11T22:42:00.000+08:00

u are just making a fool out of urself.
hate is the only word i had for u now.
sumtimes, i had the urge of scolding and telling yOu to
FCUK OFF!!

sry abt my language
but i am really very pissed off!
alicia knew.deziree knew.chi foong knew.daniel knew.
haiiss.

but i am much better now.
cus after my cursing n everytime i had done to cool my anger down.
i am much better now.
really i am!

ok today,
we had IDEA presentation.
phew~!
it was alright lar.
hahas..half way thru my presentation,
i saw camera shooting at me..
*hush*
haha..make me even nervous.
well, photos were snapped.
so waiting for my photo to be sent by Foong..hahas.
look as if i was constipating!?
haha.

Mr Tang release us 45 mins early.
that makes my lesson to end at 345=)
den the 5 of us went to makkan seoul garden @ Causeway.
"us" are me, ting,foong,alan & jun
=)
very full..as usual, 2 hrs spend on the bbq table`
shop ard for jun's gf present'

tmr gOin to take jerseys liao` yeah!!

2 more weeks to term tests..sians.
birthday cuming too`
just wan to be happy like before.may i??
=]

trying alot of reasons to smile again`

2006-05-03T19:12:00.000+08:00

on mon went shopping with ting n foong
roamed the orchard'
spend my $70 on wears
2 tops and one skirt.
the 3 of us gt the same shirt from Gio
and we planned to wear it soon..
i got black,Ting gt herself a blue and Foong got himself a white top.
haha..=)

ytd had bowling training
the first one.
had warm up with Jun & Foong Lao Da before training
i played very badly.
i got 50+
things gt better and i achieved 84 points.
training weird cus first time doing basic drills
haha..nv do bowling drills before.
adopt the coach matter and played one game
score was abit better - 95
haha..not bad lar..10 points..slowly pick bah =)

after sch today,
went Jurong Point with the 11 of them.
guys seprated with the girls for lunch
after lunch at LJS,
Ting, Alicia and I went do manicure!!

taken when Alicia have not finish hers.
It's my hand and Ting's. The 2 little fingers belongs to Shu Hui*naughty*

THE DC^

aLiCiA aKa msLIM` and mE!

ShUhUi aNd mE! *wHy aLwAyS tHis expression?*

mE n LiZhEn

BeL aNd mE^

not forgetting Ting Da-Jie & mE^

2006-04-30T20:55:00.000+08:00

felt so depressed since last nite.
not only abt the match.
yea.
Man Utd was trashed by Chelsea.
0-3.
sad isnt it.
Chelsea was immediately crowned the Champs title =(

i got a million things to say to u
but u just walked away
i wan to tell you i still love yOu.

i just hate this.
i am sad n feeling that blue
and i dunno why i am so...
i felt so ridiculously sad.
unknown*

i am sad.i am sad.i am sad.

missing my life then.
thinking abt u again and again
you filled up my mind*

i m feeling so blue^

2006-04-27T20:29:00.000+08:00

that's the 11 of us..
to be exact is 12.
cus mun chee was holding on to the cam.
he was claimed camera-shy =X

the guys in the pic-starting from left :
JunHao.Alan.Chi Foong.Jian Liang.Yuyu & nt forgettin MC.
the girls in the pic-top left to bottom right:
MeiTing.Annabel.Me.Alicia.Shu Hui.Li Zhen

so guess wad did the 12 of us did today for lunch?
pretty silly but we have no choice.
sitting at the mini-stage infront of Admin Building,
facing the library
doing what?
eating lunch.
hahas..yet again, the canteen was packed
so we packed our lunch there.=X
many ppl are looking at us.
pretty embarassed abt it.
hahaha..

life in sch getting better
hopefully.
misunderstanding do take place
but soon resolves
i think so.

tmr going Queenway do the jersey le.
=)
Bowling shall commence nxt tues.
Badminton Trail nxt wed.
shld i go or go for the AIDS talk which i will be awarded with CCA points?
hais.
mixed*

i still dun understand why.
what are those glances for?
does they speak out what u really want to say?
sorry, but i dun catch them.

2006-04-25T18:31:00.000+08:00

i duno why but it seems to be so.
everything was a mystery.
i need help.
i dun understand what is going on.
felt so retarted.

missing the days with him
missing the time i had warmth in ur arms

i m nt hungry this moment.
but i m craving for cup corn!

i duno why but this habit of eating cup corn took place when i was working.
and i got addicted to cup corn!
lunch was mac at sch
no seats nor tables so we girls went to pack it
and ate at T4.
we are feeding ourselves and the mosquitoes!

Law was alright ytd.
Practical for BM was so-so.

CADD was atrocious!
i gt mixed up like octupus working with its 8 legs.
argh~!
CS was alright but fun!
having class tests in 2 weeks time.
crack lots of jokes in class.
crappy.

had late lunch with alan,jun & liang at west mall
while Yu went home.
start toking abt our future.the big match this weekend
Chelsea VS Man Utd.

glad that my classmates still rmb my birthday=)
Da Lao Da promise to bring us to go clubbing!
finally out of sec.sch
thinking of how i spend my birthday in sec sch.
Sec 1(130601) - Mass Dance rehearsal
Sec 2(130602) - Prefect Camp
Sec 3(130603) - Remedial
Sec 4(140604) - Band Camp
Sec 5(130605) - Geo Field Trip
so i am out of sec.sch, hopefully i will nt gt tie by POLY..
hahaha!

tmr gonna be a short day.
sch ends at 12.
=)

M I NORMAL?
i dun felt this way`

2006-04-23T23:22:00.000+08:00

ytd went to the SYF 2006 outdoor
wanna congrats Deyi, Bowen & TK for entering the TOP 3 bands =)

Hwa Chong Institution High

YuYing Sec

Tanjong KatOng

Bukit Panjang Govt

Deyi

Yusoft Ishak

Jurong West

West Spring

Bowen

PingYi & Springfield

The Drum Majors

=)

2006-04-20T19:11:00.000+08:00

010805-160406
our story ended.

firstly, i really want to say sorry to you.
i koe i let u go
but i really cant carry on standing the way u treat me
i will suffer from depression sooner or later
i felt controlled entirely by you
i had no freedom to do watever i wan.
i love my CCA, u do too.
but i dun understand why it is wrong for me even to step into the school

memories kept there are so memorable,
dun u agree.
just wan to be where i had spend my last 5 years.
where fun;joy and laughter are.

i had given u countless chances till i had lost track of
but u nv cherish those
i felt suffocating soon.
that is when i think everything shld stop.
i had enough'
sorry but i still wan to say i still love u.

sch - so far so good
1B/21 rox.
really it do.
my life in poly is enlighten by my big grp of fren:
-Li Zhen aka Lizard
-Alicia
-Shu Hui aka Clown or Monkey
-Annabel
-Mei Ting
-Alan aka Da Lao Da
-Chi Foong aka Lao Da
-Mun Chee
-Jun Hao aka Bowling King
and lastly
-Yu Yu aka 'Pervert' by me aka 'Handsome' which he wan pees to call.

ok that the 11 of us.sometimes plus here minus there.
haha
so far, law is making me nuts.
CADD and Building Science are fun and interesting
Building Materials and ECT are making doze off in class
the first day of having CS, i already gt projects to do..sian`
but topic very interesting - Littering =D

seriously, my class is fun.
and hanging out with these people are extremely fun.
bowling, makkaning etc!
tmr is another bowling session.
so me n junhao decided to join bowling
while MeiTing, Lizhen and Shu Hui joined Primers.
YuYu, my coming-to-sch-and-go-home-mate joined Cycling.
Da Lao Da wan joined dance.
Laoda joined Tae.
the rest nt to sure yet
=)

first week of sch seems so restless for my class
but then.
i m tryin to understand everything that Law,ECT and Building Materials are all abt.
hoping i do. and glad that my class got people who learnt before.
and a chance for me to ask when i really duno.

i miss 5a1.
i miss the days in penang
i miss cameron.
i miss my sec.sch life~!!

2006-04-14T23:55:00.000+08:00

went out today with mel, just and lingwei

bought a bag for my new start of the "year"=)

below r the photos we took.

took when they did not know:

Must buy 4D:

Candid shots:

Way hOme:

My dInNer:

that's all folks. =)
i m looking foward for the new school days!

2006-04-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

the starting to meet my new classmates.

went sch with huiting
and met up with Fifi n com.
and found out the 4 of us are not even in the same class
then the new class, which is my class - 1b/21 was led to a computer lab
and we were given briefing and stuffs.

had lunch.
made new frens like:
-Annabel who looks like Eewen
-Alicia
-Li Zhen
-Shu Hui
-Huda
-Adeline
and lastly a girl pop out of sum where - Mei Ting'

and i got to koe the 4th day event - Treasure hunt around half of the school
i bet it gonna be fun.
bored i m in the lecture hall jus now.
the few of us were so bored by the speeches n sort.
Alicia left the hall sumhow during break
i m grateful that during the speeches on going,
i found out Huda shares the same interest in ME!!!
SOCCER!!

sadly i dun find anyone living in Yishun,SMB, woodlands area. =(
i hope the class will be united like 5a1!!=)

2006-04-08T15:32:00.001+08:00

i was hurt*

it seems we are over.i felt this way

010805-the day we got tgt.
8 months and a week after that,
it really seems our relationship is flashing a red light'

before 010805.
knowing of my weakness, u cheered me up
asked me to be strong and stand firm.
u r there for me.

the starting.
it was sweet as honey
nite greeting msg(es) flooded my inbox.
u nv fail to do so.

starting of this year-
everything changed.
i koe i cant spend more time with u due to work
we start to quarrel even more often n over such little stuff
the nite msg(es) are either nv been send or short

the nite msg(es) used to be abt 160 chars.long
but now, it had not been cuming or it is just 4 words - nite

i really dun understand why'
u r always thinking u r right
i m always at fault.

that day, i merely just msg my fren abt the poly stuff.
u got angry n jealous.
throwing ur temper and ask me to look for him instead.
while for u, u msg her when u can ask so many ppl
and u say i dun even have the right to be angry.
it was as if i was ~~banned~~ to be angry and jealous'

whenever we quarrelled and i cried,
u nv did ur part of telling me not to cry or even console me.

as for ytd, u simply koe tt i will go sch early.
n u dun like to be in sch so early.
therefore, i went ahead with my frens
n u make a noise bout it
when i saw u in sch,
u gave me that kind of look.

during dinner, i think u r just puttin up an act.
at mac itself, after the guys left for home.
u nv spoke a single word that makes me smile.
i koe u r jealous abt wad happen which i dun wish to elaborate here.

u claimed u felt sorry for zub n erfy.
u told her the trust in a relationship is impt.
but u dun even trust me at all.

after the call jus now.
i broke into tears.
i duno shld i even consider this a broke up.
u called me not to look up for u.
i really wish u could stop sms-ing me every 15 mins
cus the more u send me, the more i felt like crying.
u gave me a life n u took it away.

i have nth much more to say.
trying to be strong like u used to tell me to.=)

2006-04-08T13:56:00.000+08:00

it was fun*

ytd was SMB's 7th Speech day
as usual, band members are taking awards.
u guys did us proud!

i love ytd.
it was really fun!
listening to Mrs Rajar giving report on the past one year.
it was really really very very fun at the reception when the band played
especially when the band played YMCA.
everyone was dancing.even the teachers too.
i love u guys!!

after everything, ate mac.
fries n a cup of coke - that is my lunch n dinner =)

the band!

the supportin cont.

the GOH-NPCC.

the full parade

the woodwinds!

my euph section!!

2006-03-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

ytd went out with lingwei.
i brought abt $200 while she brought $100
what a great shopping day it will lies ahead'

first stop - MSq`
shop ard.
bought a bag from bloodbrothers.project
which cost $70.
first time in my life i bought such a expensive bag!
puma just open its store in S'pore - MSq
the things there was so cheap.
maybe it is an opening sale

nxt at mango, we saw this 2 shirts
i find it quite interesting
1. a shirt with snoopy
2. all the countries name in a shirt
it took a few mins to spot Singapore names on the shirt.

so our total shop-list at MSq:
for me- a bag n a wallet
for lw - a wallet

nxt stop - bugis
bought 2 pair of earings.
lingwei bought a couple of shirts
n we went to the new shopping mall across the road.
omg~!
the mall is so pathetically small!!
there is stairs but no escalators!!
marks my words!!
u got to climb up the stairs from the first floor to 6th!
there is a lift that leads to no where`
did my pedicure again.
$30 gone~!

next stop - Heeren
suppose to buy a new shoe
which is on sale.
but no more stocks`
so had a time to choose a new one.
found one which is olso green
my $60, bye bye!

by end of the day, i had spend all my $200
while lw seems got more to spend n spare..
haha.
walk till our legs are tired.
but it is worth while to buy things.

we still have one more thing to buy - school bag which supposely can store a laptop in it` =)

why isnt np sending me letter?
even it was a reject or a sucess.
dun they wan to send letter..
it is already end of march.
maybe like tt guy of NP says,
the letter only send to his mail box 2 weeks before sch starts.
omg~!
hais.

prayin hard for the sucess letter`

2006-03-19T00:36:00.000+08:00

current match goin on-
Man Utd vs West Brom
2-0
L.Saha scored.
well, i got nth much to say.
my only hope is Van Nis do not leave Man Utd eversince his place was exchanged with L.Saha during the Carling Cup Final.
my agony rose last match when L.Saha did not even score.
it was miss miss miss.
thrice in a row~!

world cup starting this june.
9 jUne.06
again, england fall under the same grp as sweden.
hais.
Peter.c is in.
it was like finally after duno how long he finally score.
bled in almost every match
i wonder is it worth to bring him along?
sorry if i really offended any Liverpool's fans.

reports had been saying that this 2 meter tall guy is good for his height but not scoring.
hais.
wadeva will be will be.
shall hope England emerge to Q.final and evetually Final with the trophy.

4 years ago, England was been thrown out by Champ - the Brazilians.
at Q finals.
will they beat them.
we shall see =)

sch starting in weeks time.
haven bought enuff things for the reopen.
needless to say - my heavy shopping trip/

saw a nike sling bag at Cineleisure.
$110.25/--
there is componet for laptop.=)
it will be a much more safer bag than the one i saw 2 weeks ago'

Tamp Adidas's shop havin 50% discount.
i saw a shirt on sale for 15% .
it gonna be mine no sooner or later.

got to take my paid in a week time.
bless me=)
i need cash - instant cash.
$$$$

bless my appeal results which is cuming out soon.=]

shall blog soon.
tuning back to chnl 24 - West Brom vS Man Utd

postin results sucks like hell`

2006-03-07T21:25:00.000+08:00

posting results were out a few days ago;
got myself enrolled into the 10th choice
it is bloody d*** unlucky of me
guess what the choice it was??
simone named it as super-long-name-course
PROPERTY DEVELOPMENT AND FACILITIES MAG.
*for those who duno, this is sumtink like design, falls under the school of Design'

i was devasted abt my posting
but nutting can be done to it
unless i appeal'

yea` that is wad i did ytd along with LingWei
we went to NYP. i applied for Business Mgt
follow by NP - facilities mag for business
along with Madeline & Justina
while Lingwei went home.
had pizza for lunch'
and went to band=)

bless my JAE appeal results, please!!

2006-03-02T21:20:00.001+08:00

that day when we do our pedicure

our legs~!

my tOes~!

dEzIree's tOes

our handphone strips - Tigger and Eeyore

Dez's dinner - Seafood Mania

Mine!! Creamy Chicken

My TiGgEr`

the day i cut my hair

eeyore.tigger.pooh.piglet

my new hairstyle

2006-02-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

wondering shld i change my blog add again
or a change of blogskin?
puzzled`
shall stick with this plain/boring one

on fri i had extended work till 7 plus
went to bishan with dez for pedicure
i had my done with the coat of blue
while hers is pink
shall upload the photos once send.
to the couresty of dez - of cus.
had very late dinner then at pastamania - 10 in the night
reached home quite late.

the last saturday of the month.
in the morning, follow him to amara hotel for his paid slip
then it was quite late for me
therefore, i met the rest at smb
sapphire back in action
xinglin n i had our hair cut
the rest are extras
*opps*
just kidding.
didn really like my new hairstyle
until i tied it up =)
i duno why and he said its nice =)
after the haircut, i went to his house
coached Siti physics and Pudding Boi english.
i felt i m a tutor more each day
maybe since that day i went to dez's house..haha
for dinner,
we had it at Lot 1
first time in my life i ate Korean food after my resignation at the Korean outlet.=)

grandma had herself admit in hospital for high fever
and blah blah blah.
i am just tired of all these

Man Utd vS Wigan later.
Carling Cup Final
Who shall be the champs?
Will Man Utd lifted up to its slogan - We're the Champions?
of cus they will ;)

that day - frankly i told you what had been hiding in my heart
i felt like giving all up
but i koe this will upsets you
but i chose to keep in silence
maybe i started to regret, maybe i had not
i duno'

2006-02-17T10:56:00.000+08:00

it was freaking damn boring at home and i had abt an hour to spend before i left for my work.
maybe i shld have wake up abit later like ytd - 1130.

ytd was a very freaking day when everything turns upside down
i duno why.?
but it seems eveything is upside down.
i m so bored to death when working.
just need one whole day to let me shop till i drop.
this sat, shopping at PS gonna fixed with my freaking yet adorable and understanding cousin - BING'

sunday shall be another round of shopping with DezI aka big Chilli!
at the east of S'pore.
we gonna rock and conquer White Sands, Tamp Mall, Century sQ and East Point Mall'
hopefully! *cross fingers*

boredom seems to conquering my life for these few days?
wHy?? heLp!!!
Ning had give me a very good idea to put away my boredom
thnks.=)

6 food items i feel like having them infront of me now:
1. roti prata(plain)
2. roti prata (chocolate)
3. hawaiian pizza
4. pizza hut's drumlets
5. Gelare's ice cream waffle
6. chicken rice from Far East Plaza

6 things i wanna do now:
1. turn back the clock to last year
2. sleep
3. change hP
4. get my new mp3 soon!
5. shopping
6. meet up my old frens!

6 things i wishing for:
1. my new mp3
2. my digi cam.
3. adidas bag
4. adidas jacket
5. converse shoe
6. peace!

6 favourite songs:
1. shan hu hai - jay n LarA
2. Lu Zhou - S.H.E
3. Xin Xin Zi Huo - S.H.E
4. Kiss Goodbye - Lee Hom
5. Because of You - Kelly Clarkson
6. Superwoman - Karyn White *this present song u all are hearing =)*

6 important things to me
1. oxygen
2. money
3. family and frens
4. water
5. hp
6. my specs =) *lame`*

anyway, Ning thanks for this! i really do up this and time flies
it is time for me to go work..
thanks yOu!!

2006-02-15T20:54:00.000+08:00

happy valentine to all~
belated*..

submit my application for the registration which ends today.
had my 12 choices done quite slowly.
5 options of TP
4 at SP
2 at NP
the only one at NYP =)
hopefully i get the first choice =)

he got me a heart-shape cushion
pink in colour which i m craving for since last year.
so it was eventually an old stock..haha <3

these few days i m not in cloud 9 mood.
but seriously thankful to kevin n sapphire.
for lending me their ears..
i m olright.
i m fine.

work from 1 to 9 pm ytd nite.
busy streets n all
did a last minute shoppin for his present.
i m dead tired.

last sunday's shopping had been postpuned to this sun..
cant wait!!

at this moment, i m craving for:
1. a adidas sling bag
2. a adidas jacket.
3. a pair of converse shoe
4. a brand new hairstyle =S

stress from whatever u are doing to me.

2006-02-11T21:32:00.000+08:00

results are out.
glad that it met my expectation of L1R4 below 20.=)
after deduction using CCA grades, i got 16.

i also met my target for maths..i got a b3! =)
surprisingly, i passed my english - b4.
got 2 b3, 2 b4 and a c6 which is my chinese =(
as for the last sub - F&N i flunked badly.E8`
overall, i m quite satified thou F&N is the unexpected one.

aiming for resort mag.
TP? NP? SP? NYP? RP?
had to filled up abt 12 options.
but i only manage to fill up 11.
last option, i m in a lost what to put.

Edmund got 19.
19 seems to be his lucky number eversince i koe him
but after cca deduction, he got 16 or 17.. cant rmb.
as for Roan & Ron.
14 for the girl and 17 for the guy =)
but Roan aiming for MI while Ron aiming for NP =)

hopefully, i am able to attend same sch as him, mich, nazz and the whole 5a1 geO class =)
if for me n mich to be together again in the same sch.
we shall be 15 years including the poly years =)
n we koe each other for almost 12 years!!

btw, i got my paid on fri.
as for now, i had spend abt $70..
tmr shall be another shoppin day for me n deZiree =)

and he shall be on cast for another 3 weeks
boo hoo! =(
misunderstanding erupted somehow between us.
but i m grateful that it is solved.

had alumni band ytd ard 530 after the results.
denise n ifah were in eupho with me.
de band was quite small at the moment.
it shall expand =)

busy sunday for me..yes sure!?
why not?

2006-02-06T11:17:00.000+08:00

i watched the zodiac.

chalet's over.
it's not fun as before.
played xbox for almost 4 hours in the games room.
spend abt $12 there.

after everything,
went over to Ying's house.
played PS again.
played 9 rounds of mahjong.
bing was the overall winner.
i won abt 3 rounds.
Ying only won 1.
=) a great day after all.

had lunch at compass point.
met uncle lawerence.
hong bao!
did a little shopping.
went back to Ying's house.

went home abt 6+.
a tired weekend

rumours saying exams releasing this week.
scared?
let nature takes its course.
since the day i hand up the papers.
it fixed my fate ahead.
whether to enter a good poly.

as for my work,
haven took my paid
as eric had not return from his holiday.
gracious thnks that the paid was given in cash n not cheQue.
=)
this week will b the last week as the whole shop is goin thru renovation for another 4 months
while i m transfer to office to do some admin work =)

good things lies ahead.
should be..?

lost.

2006-01-31T19:37:00.000+08:00

piling up my past few days.

happy birthday to the jacky!!

Man Utd won the other day~
3-0!!

the first day of CNY is busy.
thou it is only visiting to only 3 places.
both my grandparents' place n my grandaunt's
bascially it is a reunion
as i only get to see them(my relatives)
once a year. and that will b CNY.

later part of the evening,
many relatives gathered at my paternal grandparents' place.
that included my baby niece - HazeL paNg!
it seems almost a month since i last saw her.

got lots of packets.
=)

the second day,
oso only visit 3 places
got duno-how-much-times-lesser packets than the day before.
adding up the amount, it is less than last year =(

third day.
caught a movie with mum,dad,aunt,uncle, cousin wee n CIL.simone
I NOT STUPID 2!
on the scale of 10 - 9
it is xtremely touching.
the movie lasts for abt 2 hours.
1.dun ever look at the bad side of one.
look at good points that he had.
2.if the apple is rotten, cut away the rotten area and it will still be a good apple.
3. never answer ur parents with "em.anh.orh!"

after the movie,
i went to find BB.
dad n mum went home.
the rest went to Pasir Ris.
BB was injured due to a car accident=(
get well soon baby!!

i will rmb SHB 8226.
i cant rmb the last alphabet of the number plate.
31 days had pass by.
on my wishlist this year,
is not to meet any drivers who dont understand the meaning of zebra-crossing.
sorry to say, i met one today
and i got hold of the number plate.
in much detail, it was a ~~silvercab.~~

goin on chalet this fri.
to celebrate cousin's wee bdae.
who is turning 20 this feb.

i m starting work tmr.
just cant believe it.
i m so restless to work..
oMg~! how???

living in the world of green

2006-01-23T20:08:00.000+08:00

peace`.

22/01(Sunday)
went shopping with dad n mum at causeway'
bought some personal stuff
in total, we spend about $120+

at the late evening,
went to watch SP's band concert at esplanade.
it was olright
only enter the hall when they played the third song
cus Ms Justina was late.
they played ride.
no comments`
last row!!!
what a good seat that MR BRANDON HAD GAVE US!!
argh!!

secondly, i want to say the ticket is damn expensive man!
but was been threaten to go..
all thanks to LOW JIAMING!
anyway, i enjoy the concert especially the encore part.
when the band played the CNY piece
and guess what brandon was doin.?
he was not even playing eupho..
but toying with a lion's head'
upon seeing that,
Just n I broke into laughter.

after the concert,
me n just went to MS to meet Joey'
she is holdin on to Brandon's camera.
hahas..
couldn really recognize her.
=X

anyway, went home..was damn tired`
long journey home'

23/01(Monday)
went to work.
woke up damn late today.
but luckily i was able to turn up for work at the very minute.

now i m at Dez's house.
waiting for her to come out from her bath
to enjoy our dinner - hawaiian pizza n drumlets.
=)
yummy~!

got to know that i have a new sec 1 jr.
it was a girl!!
again!!
n this time round, it was Alex's sis'
eupho rocks~!!
haha!

i m missing lots of fun that i used to have.
dreaming...

2006-01-18T22:14:00.000+08:00

my heart shatters.

it is not me n BB.
but a very close fren of mine n her ex.
i read the blog of wad-we-called-the-third-party's
they seems to be very close.
well. i had no right to interfere their relationship.
n shall kept my comments to myself.
but just felt sad n heartbroken when i read even more in her blog
haiss..

work had started for me..
at tamp'
diaos!
business very slow.
customers come. u busy for 5 mins.
den u can relax till 20-30 mins..
business is slow`
hais.
learn quite a number of things since ytd.
=)

just came back from the meeting
hais.
been lazy.slack~!
haiss.

tmr shall be the open hse for SP,TP n NYP
no time, man! no time!!
maybe sat?
haiss.
siianx!!

"Cyber!!"

"yes?" *wOoF*

"LoOk here! come on! look here!"

"dUn dIsTurb me eat my bone"*wOoF!*

"Cyber! just one photo!"

"i say dun disturb me! i wan go eat my bone!"*WoOf!*

Cyber.cute!
the ho/lai/wang plus me one Koh seems to be very engross with Cyber
the new family pet
thou it stayed with the Ho family
but it doesnt stop the Lai/Wang/Koh to play with it!!
maybe one Lee is included =X
heard from Simone Jie that Cyber is 90 goddy years old
to human is 9 years lar~!
Cyber.Cyber!!

who can help me dL Grand Theft Auto
i tink i got hooked on it.
=X
i m bored.
i need this game.

2006-01-15T21:13:00.001+08:00

boring sunday afternoon'

in early afternoon did a lit' shopping with mai.
at far east.again!?
she bought a newbie shirt for her fren
while me bought a wallet for him
hope he likes it.

as the mins ticked by,
it turns 3.
met dad n mum at chinatown for some CNY shopping spree.
got myself a pants.
there was this ah-pek
he was walking damn fast that he knocked onto me
n without sayin anything.
wad to blame? CNY shopping spree in chinatown.
who cares!?
wad makes me irritated was that;
upon his knock against me.
i moved back a few steps.
o.O
which caused me to lose my balance.
=
in chinatown now,
it is unavoidable that nobody will knock/bang onto u.
in addition,
the typical way of singaporeans' cutting quene is not able to refrain from.

my mood had been moody since last week.
wat happen!?
everything is not very rite in me nowadays.
the old me is back.
maybe? maybe not?

sat infront of my com,
boredom conquered my life.
he's out with his family as usual.
me.?
maybe due to boredom.
i gathered those booklet that the polys sent to me
stack them up - SP,TP.NP.NYP n lastly RP.
hais.
flipped thru them.list down the courses that interest or had signal a GREEN light to my brain.
there are a few new courses that RP, TP n NP had set up
n in which interest me.
haha.wad a joke~!
most of all,
TP's lastest courses that will be recruiting its first batch of students in 2006.
- Leisure And Resort Mag. & Culinary n Catering Mag
hopefully, the cut-off points n admission requirements for these 2 courses are not high standard.
cus these sounds interesting.
=P
NP and SP's new course/diploma - Tourism and Resort Mag.
RP's Intergrated Events Mag!
new courses.
wonder how their intake be like
most of all,
i mus get the grades i wan.
must pass most importantly.

hais.
days are numbered.
my results slip will soon appear infront me in the sch hall.
on the table.
once again.
but this time round, it was no longer Mr Thong and Mrs Goh giving me my N's slip
but Mdm Valar alone.
giving me my O's slip.
hais.
did i mention tat, Ms Ng had left S'pore.?
nvm.

maybe it's too late to think abt 2005 when 2006 is here.
maybe i m the type who likes to dream the past?
maybe?

2005 really fly past that fast.
5a1'05 walked into history.
thinking back,
5a1 - the class i hate most.
combine class of 3 classes.
2 diff humanities - history n geO
3 diff subs - arts, F&N, D&T
huh!
first reaction that was.
the teachers that used to teach were been replaced.
really reluctant to go sch at first
i wan back my teachers.
been abit that rebellious then
soon, really koe the hardship that my teachers been goin thru
learn to cherish them.
found my good buddies in a1.
my fren since i was 6 yrs old- michelle
the puffer fish - raiza
the malay dancer - zub
Iron(Fe) - aIn
bao mu - sU yee
the pretty girls - aInI n mAgGie
n much more...
a grp of girls that share the same dream - of finding their dream guy.waiting for the one.
but sadly, each of us always recieve heartbreaking from the-guy-we-claimed-is-our-the-one.
before half of the year went by,
naveen left the class
it was as if the class had lost its soul of humour.
everything went dead.
stop n rmb. the days when naveen, alvin n songwai kept quarrelling among themselves
the names which they called each other - Tamil Tigers n Malaysian
lessons will not as funny as compared with naveen ard.
there come, geo field trip
that bring about the bonding among the 18 of us who went.
i can name them=)
me.mich.raiza.ain.zub.aini.
sirat.leo.fadli.asrol.nazzer.erfy.sufyan.glen.songwai.hanafi.jy.daoyang.
sadly, mark and Lewis didnt went
i do rmb after half a year in a1,
the gang (about 15 of the geo students) lepak under a block after sch
bonding gets tat close.
the girls shed tears n luff together
sometimes doin hw for each other.
coach each other.
the guys played soccer, strumming guitar n doin one last thing tt i hate most.
can see that the class bondin sumhow got closer when clas tee was released.
i began to love this class even more.
alvin sumhow replaced naveen.
wesley became the second alvin in class.
n songwai nv stop his funny humourous jokes.
hanafi n Jy nv fail to make Ms Ng luff or angry.
got my 5th relation started.
been on goin till now.
thnks BB.!
the bloody terrible o lvl emerged.
the coaching nv stop.
the exchange of notes.
the frenship that stayed to be last forever.
=)

maybe like wad ppl olways say.
good things nv last long.
is it true??
*strach head*

i m drifting my mind away..
hahas..
sapphIre called me wonder woman.
maybe it really suits me.
like to wonder ard when shopping
n oso wonder in my dream land when i m bored.

i m starting to miss 2005.
all these are meant to be memories.
sweet memories.
know the past
rmb the present
plan the future.

2006 cCa opEn hSe'

2006-01-14T00:15:00.000+08:00

chilli.
the weather was icy-cold.

had a new coat of attire for my bLog.
butterflies.
nice?
saw a black butterfly in sch todae.
fluttering its wings from places to places.
pity it.
a butterfly had a short life span.
pity it.
a few days to glance the beauty of this world.
the flora n fauna that lives within this place called Earth.
pity it.

well, finally
after all.
i met my new jrs from the sec 1 cohot.
they are indeed small size
need to eat more =X

as i can see,
they are rather committed
hope this stays on.=)
there wasnt much "conflict" among CCAs
or maybe i was no longer in the sch.

the common thing that i saw today that happen years back when i was a sec 1
was the seniors grabbing jrs for their cca.
this momento that stayed.
the urge for the seniors to grab their little ones.

the band played a few pieces
draw n fancinated the crowds then.
great!?
sounds good.

my mind still drown in the mood of beyond the sea.
lyrics flicked thru my mind.

jOey was back others too. ;)
i miss her!!
my dear junior`

the concert was alright.
while i was stumped with a few cameras
to take a few shots.
lucky n thnks to fiona n lw ;)

this year, recruitment was not bad.
as i said, hope everything stays in place.

however, my temper was tested n caught fire somehow.
sumthing really make my blood boil.
shant say it here..
but it is pretty obvious.
that sum ppl out there trying to step~
been a triple A battery.
rolling around my surrounding.
testing each n everyone's patient
it is irritating. it is an eye-sore'!
nobody is perfect. n dun step as if u r damn perfect like one piece of printing paper.
white as it can be.

stop ur nonsense before we really get pissed off'
n shout at u.
u're just another triple A battery!
opps! maybe u r on the top of my list.

here it goes, there it goes
the trouble of communication - break down
the first stepping stone to relation broke down.
the words that stayed in my mind
the tots that i ponder.
enveloped my mind again n again
bringin my memories to the first time
it was all gone.
crushed n nothing left
wad really reamins was the broken n shattered pieces of my heart.

peace*
hoping in progress.
nth will ever change'

2006-01-09T20:44:00.000+08:00

did a round of shopping.
gre8!

went out with ning.
met her in DB mrt after her sch
shop around, bought a pure milk shirt
=)
then we headed to J8.
go shop ard with yvonne, rina n us.
while the guys went to do hw at mac.
hardworking siax!!
saw lots of things that i wanted own.
money! i wan money!!

afterwhich,
ning, rJ, nigel, jun, dolp, alex, andy went to rick's hse
rina n von went home.
i..?
went back sch- band!
hahas..

siian!!
tmr sumhow gonna be a pack day for me!!
bless me!

more cash, please!

2006-01-08T22:22:00.000+08:00

i am back.

as usual, the phone nv stop beeping its msg tone =)
as usual, the com screen nv stop its jumping lines whenever a msg is recieved.
=)
i m glad =)
*all smiles.*

i admit we still quarrel.
we had been quarelling the past few days;
but it seems fine now'

did a rebonding on friday
accompanied by chris who went for a hair cut.
den we went over to her guy's shop to have a game or two.

ytd;
was my niece's first month
never got to know her name since ytd lar
=P
hazel pang xin yi!!
caught up with my young n pretty aunties
Elizabeth n Sharon'
in the form of respect, i got to call them auntie
but as Eliza said,
"dun call mi auntie, seems so old,call mi jie jie"

caught in the rain somehow.
n my hair was like fizzy'
made an appointment with the salon for "intensive care"
it's better now.

went to see S.H.E!!!
i love them!!
the atmosphere was high!
sadly, their autograph session tmr..
nobody acc me go~!
=[
mus buy orh!
S.H.E new album!! hahas!!

anyway,
may god bless me'!
tired.worn out

2006-01-03T17:27:00.000+08:00

everything is gettin better
hope this will last'

today start work.
posted to PLMG.
haha.
the sch was in the former Serangoon Garden
alight at the wrong stop
den took cab down.
-_-"

siian diaox
down there nth to do.
sat at the canteen see ppl walk here walk there.
then walked ard the sch 3 times.
their band notice board so hard to find.
anyway, the band did went for the Genting comp last dec.
i like their Guzheng n Netball board
so nice n cute!!
especially the Guzheng one..
the cartoon very cute!!
the food there oso not bad lor..
=)

as for him.
he was posted to one of the sch in sembawang
uhz.
the machines there were much more retarted n faulty.
den he approached one stall
when a girl lay her hand/arm on his shoulder.
ahem!
as claimed by him,
he elbowed-push the girl
den the girls' frens luff at her..
blah blah`
THAT GIRL! YES THAT GIRL!
WHO ALWAYS WINKED AT GUYS IN MAC.
uhz.

went to plaza sing.
walked ard.
den he went to work again
while me.
sat mrt home doing sudoku..
uh.

tmr there is more work'
bless me./

2006-01-02T13:15:00.000+08:00

i duno where in the hell
my mind gonna drive me to..
i cant think straight
puzzled.
maybe i m recovering from the heartache.
maybe i m not'

we sms-ed.

maybe i m too soft-hearted that i replied.
it was nv like before.
the sweet moments that we shared were gone with the wind~

everything was like usual.
or wasnt it not.
didnt tok much last nite
as he was worn out after a day

i spent my day sitting infront of the com
tat's wad i did.
thinking n tryin to recover from the pain

he is startin work today.
3 to 11pm
called him - a 7 min conversation
with sum silence fall in between'
u shld koe the reason why u cant cum..
this sentence seems to conquer my mind since ytd.
it wasnt as if i dun wan to.
u nv knew my stand
u nv stand in my shoe to koe wad's happening.
u're now blaming me for not able to join u ytd.
n now u told me ur body is red.
wad u wan me to say.
tears which i swallowed
u nv get to see;
everyday i hope to see that u changed back to ur own self.
but u nv.

i m cryin again'
can u feel it.
can u see it.

2006-01-01T16:21:00.000+08:00

yi qian shi- ni shi wo de xin fu ma?
ke shi xian zhai - ni hai shi wo de xin fu ma?

happy new year to all~!

juzt came back from suntec with mum n dad.
bought lots of stuff;
went hunting for cams'
but..hais.

today is the 1st
ya` the 1st
5th month..
but we nv came out together..=(
he went to sentosa with his family.
seriously i m not sad abt it`
*cross fingers*

first time.
in 5 months.
haiis..
maybe he regard ytd as our 5th month bah'
i felt like luffing at myself.
a fool.
i shall name myself.

i felt restricted from everything i do.
the force is always excerting on me'
no ppl had ever asked mi to do things against my wish
except teachers n others.
n i koe it is for my own good
but this is too overboard..
the force is haunting me days n nites
since de last day of o's or maybe even before the exams.

sumtimes i really wanted to end this life of mine.
to seek inner peace'
to withdraw myself from anymore conflicts tat might held ahead.
or to withdraw from the world
i jzt wan a peaceful year - 2006
but will this happen;
i m lookin forward to it.

in my opinion,
sumtimes. to u;
i m invisible.
sumtimes.
i can be seen
sumtimes.
i m just a fren to spend the time with
sumtimes.
i m just ur listening ear
sumtimes.
i m just ur shoulder to cry on.
sumtimes.
i m just a fren tt u hang ard with.

other than normal frens.
we do hold each other hands.
the normal sweet nite msg-es
to others it is classified as mushy stuff.
but now...
my mind is wondering ard..

at first.
i tot i could have sum peace today
a break-free
but in the morn.
u sent me messages tat spoilt my mood.
wad can i say..
u arent urself.
i see the changes tat hang inside of u.
worst than angel.
better than devil.
will it be a day u change urself to sumone
tat i hardly recognize.
will the love remains?

R u still the one?

2005-12-30T23:43:00.000+08:00

it was fine day'

went out with my pri class mates.
jess.dionne.chris n mer
andy was sick hence he couldn make it.
neither did melvin.
haha..
been the only guy there.
mer kept reading his book..

catch up with them for lunch, shopping n dinner.
mer doing his a level nxt year.
jess in nafa doin VC.
chris starting her first year in 2 weeks time
dionne, like me. is waiting for the o's results.

uh-huh.
i begin the "tour" in town with dionne
eatin chicken rice at far east
where sapphire used to eat..
hahaha.
den we walked all the way down to PS to meet the rest..
however,
we got abit hungry.
then we entered Gelare'
to have ice cream n drinks.

next, we shop ard.
n went up to heeren.
bought a bath towel.
infact is me, jess n chris.
den ard n ard.
stuck with duno where to go.
we begin to take neoprint at the shop.
den mer left for swimming'

we had our tea break at mc-cafe.
den we went into isetan to shop for clothes.
den the breeze to try-on blew on us.
haha..we tried gown tat u see on fairy tale..
but it is transulcent.
dont keen on buyin it.
hahas.
shall upload the photos if the gurls sent me asap.
lol!!

den had dinner at mac.
jess left for home..
den we went back to far east to shop
spotted a very-nice green shoe'
nice-y nice-y!
hahas..

we been running ard the town like mad n crazy'

later in the nite, meet him
whom had NCC POP n BBQ in sch.
then we slack at SP..doin nth;
huh......
sian!!

good nite to all;
god bless!!

2005-12-29T23:26:00.000+08:00

1 year ago..

the band had sat at SCH
for the concert..
it was a year ago..
but the memories stayed in my mind.
it was my first concert with my band,
the bands present cheered the crowd.
by playing their pieces of music.
the image.
had its "repeated telecast"
on the concert in penang.

went for the training at tanah merah.
it was okiie..
n got myself posted to PLMGS
for 2 days..
hopefully the food there is nice.!
but i got a hard time online searching for the location of the sch..
uhz...

got my ad papers liiao.
so got to paste them up soon..
uhz..
who wanted tuition pls tag me..
btw. i m not the one giving tuition.
i m just a part time tuition co-ordinater..
;)
hahaha.

woah!
todaywas amazing.
i clear box for the ice cream..
haha..
i tink it was the last day for me..
-.-
haha..

i m tired..
of not getting enuff sleep these few days..
uhz.

peace.

2005-12-23T11:51:00.000+08:00

morning!

i m bored`
cheer me up, pls.
will any kind soul do that..
jzt finish typin a resume to the HR dept at Changi Airport..
uhz.
stone.von is beside me..
haha..
crazy twins back in action!
uhz.
it seems to be boring twins.
none of us koe wat to do now.
sian diao~!

ytd gt my first christmas present from Aunt Faith.
she nv fail to giv her nieces early.
hahaha..
it was a forever friends jewel box.
nice.

which kind soul out there willing to fork out $209 for me??
i wan tat gown..my god!
i m desperate for tt gown!
uhz. ;(
on top of tt i wan to rebond my hair..
my god!
my hair is damn fizzy..
wonder is it due to the shampoo dat i used ;(

this morning had a weird dream.
i dreamt that i m still in Penang..
what the shyt!?
wakey!
haha..cont on..
we jzt had a performance at duno which part of penang.
den the buses were parked very far from the performance area.
uhx!
so we got to carry the inst n stuff across.
n i really duno why we had to cut thru one construction area.
it was at night of cus.
den me n lingwei were carryin percussion stuff.
de staircase down. was neither steep nor gentle.
so we walked down slowly.
few meters away.. we saw another staircase goin up.
so we climbed up,
there wil of cus other band members behind..
but we are considered the back one/
as we reached the top.
i saw Ms Tan, Ee Wen and others still at the bottom of the stairs.
excuse me. the stairs are without handle n are abt 3 levels.
n it is one way up..n not those u saw in HDB.
den duno wat happen de,
they all cut into the stairs below. n dissappear.
as if there is a hole direct into duno where..
n there was a stupid stray dog barking at Ms Tan n all.
den mi n lingwei tot we could walk all the way infront to search for a exit
n we spotted that we are back in S'pore..
a place like show flat like that..
n we tot we could jus used the lift.
but the lift stated tt we were at level one.
the least they could go was B1.
so we took till B1.
wat we saw were stairs again!
n we saw Ms Tan n all goin up to the bus.
but no matter how much we shout they cant hear us!!
uhz.
so we ran all the way down to the stairs..
but the stairs seems nv ending!!
i was petrified..n i jzt woke up!!

omg!
anyway, it was just a dream.. ;)

the year is ending.
shall do a list of wad i will not wan to see in 2006!! ;)

things i wish to have in 2006 again

friends who listen n understand you!
change hp!
shopping! (cash!)
family kept strikin lottery = cash!
band tour/concert!!
S.H.E to release new album soon..
on holiday!
rebond my hair!

things i dun wish to see in 2006 that happen in 2005

smokers
ppl who tend to act.
triple A batt ppl!(sapphire shld koe wat is AAA batt to me)
drivers who dun understand de meaning of zebra crossing
f***ing bytches n assholies ard..
de person whom u r interested in, dun giv a damn abt u after confession
de person whom u r interested in, oso have feelings for u.but dun dare to say.
de person whom u r interested in, trt u like his toy
de person whom u r interested in, do funny things to make ur mind wonder ard.
de person whom u r interested in, beat ard the bush with u
de person whom u r interested in, rather stick ard with sum bytches than with u..
non-understanding parents
feeling toyers!!
long quenes for cashiers at shopping mall, movies tix outlets, fast food rest.!

things i wish to have

understanding parents
new hp!
S.H.E/ Sembwinds Concert
Good results
Digi cam before CNY!

uhz..guys.

dun be agitated over wat i wrote.n dun get offended.

this is basically wad saw n exp.from myself to my frens n to my sisters.

there r just sum jerks ard, fooling ppl hearts.

brking up couples, n other sort of stuff..

it's running late on time..

i got to go.buaiz!

2005-12-21T22:21:00.001+08:00

new?

i highlighted my hair..
duno ask me what colour is it..
cus i choose from the cataloge
due to its colour that attracted me.
haha.
total bill was 100 bucks with trtment.
gosh!
my savings went a big hole.

spent 2 hrs in the salon.
did nth but browsing thru mag.
rotting!
uhx.
my hair is stil fizzy.
wad's wrong man!?
uhz..

attend the tuition co-dinator meeting..
uhz.
feel like letting go.
but uhz.
it kinda gives a bad impression when u haven even clinch a single assigment ya?
uhz.
it's like after hearing stories from kian kiat, serene n others..
it was like..uhz.
this job was like soooooooo like fishing.
u might not koe when will the customer call u.
u just got to ~~wait.rot.wait.rot.wait.rot.~~

tmr there will be band.
wonder how will it be like tmr;
band performin this sun?
at orchard?
christmas event.
i just cant enuff with christmas..
i wan christmas present.
okiie.kiddos.

vonne? Zuki? Yi? Joan? Na?Xin?
heard me?
slayers too!!!
opps! almost forgot..
rick invited me for a christmas party.
uhz.
anybody else going..
pls reply??
hello?
dumba**, r u really dumb..
who will respond to u now??
looking forward for my presents!!
=] may i?

dull life'
i need more colour in my life..
who shall paint my life even better..?

2005-12-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

its sapphire again!

we had our legs dragged us to orchard n to bugis.
it was a enjoyable one.
shopping n shopping!
the 5 of us bought a "OxyGen" shirt..
same design but diff colour..
cool?

at bugis.
it was xL, Yx n dEz turn to shop till the cows come home.
it was nobody business
so only mi n xW..
we were like ZzZ..
haha.
just a joke.'

met BB at causeway bout 6+
had dinner together.
n walked around'

wondering shld i go highlight my hair tmr.
=
i miss my pri sch fren..
at the point when i was tidyin up my room.
i saw this autograph book.
which consists of my pri sch fren profile etc.
i miss them;
-Hui Zhen, Calista, Yin Yin, Yan. n others to b mention.
last but not least. my BB! <3

i m hungry. craving for food again!
n i m learning to stop eating 1 hr before bed time`
as my tummy is coming out!!
aww!!!

5 more days to Christmas.
Santa.
all i wan for christmas is..
1. a pair of free tics to England/NZ/Finland*where u were born*
2. a digi. cam'
3. tat pmk skirt.
4. Get a jOb.
5. GET TAT BITCH OUT OF SAPPHIRE'S N OTHERS SIGHT!
6. gOod rEsults!
7. more cash!!! = tat $109 metro dress!!!

lots of luv,
Si Hui.

puzzled.

2005-12-13T22:52:00.000+08:00

Somewhere beyond the sea
Somewhere waiting for me
My lover stands on golden sands
And watches the ships that go sailing

Somewhere beyond the sea
She's there, watching for me
If I could fly like birds on high
Then straight to her arms
I'd go sailing
It's far beyond a star, it's near beyond the moon
I know beyond a doubt
My heart will lead me there soon

We'll meet beyond the shore
We'll kiss just as before
Happy we'll be beyond the sea
And never again
I'll go sailing
Some sailing..

that's beyond the sea..
n that's my fave piece of music during the tour!!
yea!!

it had been 24 hrs
since i reach home from my penang tour~
it was fun but sad sum how..
sad- that nt all my sistas went for the tour..
it is unforgetable, memorable especially for the sec 4 n 5s!!

last performance. last show.
hais. saddist!
well let's tok abt the tour..
of cus i miss my dear penguin
who is "suffering" in here for the past 6 days.
=\

okiie..
first day of the tour.
sat on our bums for almost 13 hrs.
den i saw the ray of hope.
de penang bridge - 13.5 km long.

taken from yahoo images lar.!
nice??
so we reach penang bout' 6 plus in the evening..
hoo!!
went for dinner in the hotel
n later went shoppin at the nearby shopping complex.

second day
shopping!!
dez, it's a pity u nv came along..
as u r such a shopping freak!
opps! i mean shop-holic!
did nth but shop eat shop eat.
n can u guys imagine tat,
i brought about' 400 RM to there..
by the second day i m only left with 100 RM
m i such a ~~shop-freak~~??

third day
had a change of prog.
performace at komtar was cancel
n transfer to bukit jambul
number of musicians was reduced.
then came across those malacca band.
uhz..
shant tok abt them.
at evening,
went for the display band - battle of the drums.
basically, it was all abt percussion.
they having competition lar.
it was freaking nice.. n shiok!!!
more in the nite, was a concert by the penang band.
having competition as well
but this is indoor.
10 bands to fight for the 3 bands who perform for the nxt day prog
n the top band for the state.
boon lay sec was the guest band for the nite..

forth day
had rehearsal at dewan sri pinang.
de place where the comp was held'
had a break.
n the peformance was start at 8.
watched the 3 penang bands, de malacca band, johor, n perak.
den it was out turn to perform as guest band lar.
the moment was tense..n the outcome was high
i felt like partying..
omg!
it was so nice..
when the pees out there shouted, "encore encore encore!"
i felt so warm n welcomed
when the pees stood up n sing along with aiman'
n clapped to the beat of the music.
had a late night to sleep.

fifth day
had shopping again at komtar shop. mall
had a break.
tt is when mi n others start to gossip..
omg~!
confidential talk.
uhz.
at nite,
our last performance for the tour.
at the local fun fair..
i sat the swing thingy
n lots of fun there..
it was extremly fun!

the last day was basically on our butts goin back home..
it was nice to b back home with my bed, tiggers n computer.
back home seeing my dear penguin!
muacks! <3

Her name was Lola, she was a showgirl
With yellow feathers in her hair and a dress cut down to there
She would merengue and do the cha-cha
And while she tried to be a star, Tony always tended bar
Across a crowded floor, they worked from eight til four
They were young and they had each other
Who could ask for more?

At the Copa, Copacabana
The hottest spot north of Havana
At the Copa, Copacabana
Music and passion were always the fashion
At the Copa .... they fell in love

His name was Rico, he wore a diamond
He was escorted to his chair, he saw Lola dancin' there
And when she finished, he called her over
But Rico went a bit too far, Tony sailed across the bar
And then the punches flew and chairs were smashed in two
There was blood and a single gun shotBut just who shot who?

At the Copa, Copacabana
The hottest spot north of Havana
At the Copa, Copacabana
Music and passion were always the fashion
At the Copa .... she lost her love

Her name is Lola, she was a showgirl
But that was thirty years ago, when they used to have a show
Now it's the disco, but not for Lola
Still in the dress she used to wear, faded feathers in her hair
She sits there so refined, and drinks herself half-blind
She lost her youth and she lost her Tony
Now she's lost her mind!

At the Copa .... don't fall in love
Don't fall in love
Mr Nobody is a fcuking asshole b******!

2005-12-06T09:41:00.000+08:00

i will b leaving s'pore tmr
in the morn..
missing him, missing lots of my loved one..
but i will be back on 12..
hahas..

this is the first time on tour with my band..
gonna enjoy my days there..!

alot of things flow thru my mind..
i m thinking..
hopefully i can..hopefully they allow.
hopefully, us will be together' for finally.
no more hard life leaving behind.

2005-11-30T23:50:00.000+08:00

ytd went out with vonne.
shop around orchard area
just for my blue jeans n the white long sleeves..
uhz.
in the end, only bought the long sleeves..

so had a lunch break at Breadtalk
something amazed us'
or better still, caught our attention!!
haha..
it was funny, hilarious..
seriously it is fun..
von, wanna tag the ah pek??
hahas..tt's wad i asked von..
n guess wad, the ah pek was behind us!
opps!!=X

it was a shopping cum job hunting n searching' day
went to suntec,
applied for Times, Adidas and a shoe shop
later on, in Marina sQ.
Giant-pathetic!
K box`
n gOlDen V.
=/
hope i can any of them..

and today,
went to jurong swimming complex with BB n Puddin bOi
haha.
it was sumhow like WWW.
early celebration??
haha'
met von there..hahas..
zhen QiaO oRhx..!
my skin is burning red.
again!?
haha..

sold ice cream at nite.
made abt $15..
a much more better sale than last time round.

few more mins.
will b our 4th month holdin on.
with u,
i learnt to b strong.
learn not to cry so easily.
i learn i learn.
lUv' yOu<3
01.08.05

2005-11-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

ytd was the performance..
uhz.
in ncc uni..
hahas..felt so weird at first..
he came to watch us perform..thou he dun really understand the music..
uhz.'
after everything, back at sch.
we took lots of photos.
erm..feel so happy'

went to northpoint with him
had dinner n went to time zone
haha.
so kid-dish..
just for that tigger den go n play
uhz..

n today..
we went for FILA interview after my band.
had to wait for them to call lar'
-_-"
den shop at century sQ.
haha.. clown.me
go try on 3 gowns/dress'
but too bad only gt 2 pics
=X

alamak! y black!?
haha..

okok..
then in the nite, had pizza for dinner..yum!

tmr goin out with yvonne..
it was like a finally thing.
LOL~

i m been disgusted!
sapphire shld koe wad happen..

2005-11-23T22:35:00.000+08:00

stranded'

watched harry potter ytd'
nice *thumbs up*
exciting n a roller coaster ride
it was pretty pack in the cinema..
opps!
nice show..
hoping for the next episode to come out..
n one thing which i simply dun understand..
the girl whom harry had a crush on..
erm..she was not in many scenes..
and i dun see a f**king shyt need why ppl are anti-ing her'
pretty precious god!

sadly, i was ~~rejected~~ by the job..
uh.
they said my shedule is bad for them
whatever'

nvm..
send my application for other jobs..
n he is starting his job tmr..
uh.
sians diaox//

tmr will be terrible day for the both of us.
uh. =(
sad sad sad.
i aiming tt dress! the $139 dress!!
erm.. that bag!! tt watch! lots of stuff to get!!
argh~!

went to gym in the morning..
with him..making a fool out of myself.
er-duh' haha.
den headed to town..
spot tat adidas bag!!
$49! mUsh! i wan it!!
need a bag badly for the trip..
i mean a sling bag for puttin my passport, wallet, phone n mp3.
x_x

i m tired..
ZzZ

2005-11-18T11:30:00.000+08:00

r all guys so heartless..
gOod guys all extinct??
he is definatly nt the right guy for u..!
damn him!!

which kind soul out there willing to giv me $109 + $ 39 = abt $150??

i need that sum badly..
well, last nite went out with him,
all the way to compass point'

n i saw this dress which cost $109..
*thumbs up!* its nice..
n $39 for that knitted cardigan..
nice!!
hahax..

we went till quite late..
especially after my paper which ends at 4 n go for band awhile
n went to asrol's hse for raya'
hahax.

the dress is nice!!!!
i wan it!!
so i m starting work this wed..
yea~!

hahas..

so wonder how was the plan like..
n i m goin to penang!!
woohOO!!

estactic-ly.excited..
hahas.

finally left with 1 minor paper..
all those heavy burden had finally put off..
expecially geo n for F&N..
*phew~!*

shall get changing soon..
goin out again`..
tata!!
luv u guys~~!

2005-11-14T22:21:00.000+08:00

on the same table,
he was studying'
she was lying down crying
but he nv saw her tears..

for the past 3 days,
i had been visiting houses n took sum green packets..
that's fun!!

sat- went to his cousin's hse..
sun - went to norman's, erfy's n mdm sunita's place..
today - went to ain's, erfy's *again*, hayat's, hanafi's, raiza's, fadli's, nazzer's
n left for his interview..

i admit its fun to wear cross ethic costumes..
hahas..
sat n today wore kebaya which he bought..
ytd wore a punjabi suit..hahas!!

and he been putting make up for me..thnks lot dear..
hahas..

shld start revising my notes again..
take care..
3 more papers to go!!

2005-11-10T09:35:00.000+08:00

finally got a break.
tmr is maths p2..
shld giv in my best shot..

well, overall
maths p1 was ok..but a couple was too challenging..
and the rest i tried my best but only God koes if i have gt it correct..
SS was ok..the inference qn the sch did b4!!hahas..
Daoyang was like tricking me,
DY: SH..no venice for SEQ lei
SH: how u koe?
DY: i flip the paper liao..
SH: huh.. confirm anot??
DY: actually i bluff u la..i haven flip!
-.-"""

next was, chem
ok bah.. hopefully can see a pass..
so was phy. phy was a bit challenging
but it worth a try.. i mean not gamble lar..
hais..

eng was ok..
COMPO i was stuck.dumbfounded..
i duno wad to write.
but it seems marriage
was like soooooooo.. argh~!
but luckily i read abt a compo abt
a girl force to get married by her parents..
in the end she gt commit suidice..
='(
dun even koe if i had gone out of point
aRgh!!@

dad's phone spoilt..
n he wan to sign up a new line n giv me
so is like i have 3 lines??
oh my god!
how m i goin to handle??
=X

Penang trip is less than a month away
and we gt to wear NCC number 1 uni!
at last after 1 year of sayin we got to wear NCC number1
hahas!

i m suffering from this headache i had since last nite
it was so terrible.!!
oh man!!

i need a break..
seriously one break!!
going for job interview this fri
hopefully it turn out well
thnks to Froggy n his sister for recommendin me the job..hahas
infact they are working there!haha
i koe nt funny!!

ok see ya..gt to go for studyin with BB..
buaix`

2005-11-05T23:01:00.000+08:00

reporting time!!

happy birthday to chris!!

2 more days to "o"
yet i m here shaking my legs?
no lar. i charging mp3 as well as blogging n other stuffs..

btw send all our t shirt for making..
mine was abt $11..
*hUm*
rather ex lor..=[
hais

he is making me stress!!
aRgH!!
maths shall be okie..but nt too sure bout my ss//

hais..

chem on the 2nd day
m i prepared for this big event
i doubt it's time for me to say..
as the time is approaching
no more time to waste..
as a matter of fact..
i m losing control..
time ticked by....

Love is just like an island..
u cant survive on ur own..

2005-11-03T14:06:00.000+08:00

hari raya to all muslims.

dear had gone for visits..
while me is finally-for-once at home studying this year..
*maybe*
packed my files..
re arrange everything
wad a great job u have done,girl`

now having a break.
had my lunch. plain congee n tofu`
hais..

i m sleepy now'
i need a break.
i mean more ~~breaks~~

pimples had once again conquered my forehead..
oh no!!

i wan to fall asleep
but i still have revisions to do..
=[
worst till is exams are shortly 4 days away..
maths P1 n Social Stud.
i haven really go into depth with Maths
n my Venice..i mean chpt on Venice..

ytd bought a bible..
out of curiousity bahx.maybe

just cant wait for penang trip with my band
*aRgH~!**
and the CNY to arrive.
both of these events shall make me shop till i drop'

well, i shall now stop bloggin n cont on my phy paper
n do sum reading on F&N n hopefully my maths n Social.Stud.

Always and forever
Each moment with you
It's just like a dream to me
That somehow came true
And I hope tomorrow
Will still be the same
Cause we got a life of love
That won't ever change

2005-11-01T22:53:00.000+08:00

shut up bitch!

happy 3rd month BB`
happy birthday vin.c~

ytd was halloween,
n gladly in the morning, DD dropped by
and gave me sum sweets* and passed me the photos that we took a few weeks ago;)
sO sWeEt oF u~!

k back here,
today was our 3rd month
n i completely forgot abt it after i saw the message he sent mi last nite while i was ZzZ..
not tt i m tat heartless, but maybe due to the exam fever..hahas..
thou i m counting down each day, i simply forgot abt it.. =X

he was like no mood to study after a fight with Mr Nobody.
hais..
den we go jalan jalan at Plaza Sing.
OP shop was closed and turn to a Mickey Shop..
abt 2, we headed for his hse to study..
i mean i study..heex..

tmr is eve of hari raya liao`
LOL~

and 6 more days to my first o lvl main paper.. -.-
tryin not to stress myself with it..
hopefully i can.. -.<

but i just cant wait to go penang!!

Sweeter than wine
Softer than the summer night
Everything I want, I have
Whenever I hold you tight

2005-10-29T23:02:00.000+08:00

ytd was Ning's one year..
went mandai to pray for her..
seriously, we guys miss her alot..
to me, i still cant believe she's gone..
the bubbly girl that i used to know..

walked quite a far distance from the bus stop that we alight..
about 500 m..
the path was pathetically long.
my legs are tired..
after the prayer, go meet .him.
erm..along with Siti,Pudding Boi n their other 2 cousins..
saw one baju kerbaya very nice nehx!!
but it's only top..with a scarf wrap over ur shoudler..
*nice nice*
he bought his shirt for Hari Raya..
i choose for him =X
den headed to his auntie's place..
had dinner..
and his cousin helped me rebond my fringe..
but it is no longer straight eversince my cut on Mid-May
hahas..

follow him n his mum go smb police post..
to file a report abt sumtink..
some thing to do with that Mr Nobody..

toking abt him,
somethin jus cut across my mind..
that BLOODY Mr Nobody
asked BB whether i was the one who teach them to go court to file tt case against him
wtf!
k it seems, 5apphire koe who the heck is Mr Nobody!
k i shall cont..
wtf sia!
den just now Mr Nobody called BB n asked for apology
WAT THE HECK!
WE HAD LEARN TT CERTAIN THINGS IN LIFE..
APOLOGY IS NOT THE SOLUTION!

i got so pissed off just now when Mr Nobody called BB.
the thing tat make mi slaute BB was
he hung up that a**h*** call halfway thru
as i had told BB
no point tokin to him when he dun even wan to listen..
he just simply wouldn listen to u..
n he only care abt himself..when he say he care for u all..
wtf!

after revision n that call from that Mr Nobody!
we went SL sQ walk walk
den headed to Geylang Serai
do sum henan on my right leg..
*thUmBs uP*
then he say he wanted to buy for me Kabaya for our 3rd month`
sO sWeeT! <3

went to his auntie house at hougang for dinner..
they were making sum cookies for Hari Raya..
then 8+ he sent me home..
oh oh!

counting down using only 2 hands of mine..
9 days to the war
wil i b able to conquer my fear n anxiety?

2005-10-26T11:40:00.000+08:00

my eyes are swollen from the buckets of cries..

i had just finish doin up my notes for my boring F&N
aHeM~! =X
i m too lazy to do anything..
tired..suffer from back ache n sort of stuff..

i m deeply depressed n desprately wanting a knife to kill sumone..
he is none other than Mr Nobody.
*i tink xiaomei koe lar*
he is such a jerk!!
as again, i dun wan to name ppl..
but he needs to be name n to be shame abt his deeds..

YOu think ppl like each other becus of money!?
if u dun wan them..then return wad u owe them
money..shoes.. n other things.
i may not b ur family to interfer in this situation
but seriously for the past few months r u doin ur duty to the family..
u kept sayin u nv tortured her..
which eyes or heart will believe wad u say?
God has eyes to see..
Arent u ashame tt u need sumone- a outsider to shout at u..?
If i belongs to ur family..
one thing i will do after u shoot me
will be slap u..
but i tink despite the slappin u ll not wake up..

i gt my own manners..
no need him to teach me.
one had her or his limit
ur words exceed my limit..

i m too angry to carry on
but really wan to thanks Penguin, Siti, Saifudin n their mom
for coolin mi down after the word battle..

k change my new skin..
nice mah?
kk..

2 more days n it will be a year liao..
='(
still cant believe tt she left uss..

Maths Mock Test overall i fare quite badly lar.
73/100 = 126/170..could have do better, hui!

as for the band trip,
well it is on 7 dec to 12 dec//
been a guest band for one of their SYF..
hahas..
fun funn!!
gonna shop till the mall down
haha..sharin the dorm with cyn n mai..
heex..

goin to NaNa;s new church on sun bah..
see how bah..
oXy. anybody keen on goin?

hui, start savin!!

2005-10-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

HaPpY bIrThDaY tO LiNgWeI & aMy!

during these few days gt lots of things happen..
hais`

nice anot..xuewen make de..=)

now, on the calender,
20 more days to dooms day
and i simply dun understand a single F*** s*** wat a tcher is trying to convey to us students..
is he teaching us that subject or is he tryin to teach us what qns to attend during o lvl?

i dun wanna name the teacher but then..
it is damn obvious for ppl close to me to koe which tcher i m refering..
cus basically i only so-call-anti-one-teacher-in-my-class..
shant elaborate wad tt teacher had taught us..but simply a stupid move to do..to tackle qn..

had my maths mock test..
Paper 2..
didn did well as i expected for Paper 1..
48/70..all careless mistake~

n worst still was,
mdm dewi broke to me the news tt my coursework been send for check my MOE!
oMg!
tt the last thing i wan to hear from Mdm Dewi..
oH mAn!!

band resume ytd..
it was delayed..cus all their lessons end at 230..
den tok abit abt the trip..
no more goin by air but by bus..
cost oso reduce..
1 more day is added..
6 days in malaysia..
hOoRaY~!

shall end my bloggin here..cus it time for bed..
ZzZ~

2005-10-13T17:53:00.000+08:00

You are the glass - never be emptied : n I will be your wine

ytd came home quite late after the movie..
yea..it suppose to be sumthing u guys called - revision
but this urge of catching the movie just grab me..
haha..
well, the movie was nice - typical weddding show lar..

the type when the lead actor n actresses are abt to get married..
n there will b somebody spoilt the atmosphere by objecting ur marriage
but one thing..
this movie is Corpse Bride..
interesting n outstanding was marry to a ghost as wife..
N there was this vow that should be taken :

With this hand,i hold the candle

With this candle, i lit the path ahead

With this ring, I put it on ur hand

With this glass, nv to be emptied

I will be your wine

okok..

then in school today.

had the class foto taken.

did papers n tons of them

no sch tmr..due to marking day..

oMg~!

i envy those n lvl students n sec 1 tO 3

if only..
huM~
before the exams had even started
my mind had been wondered n drifted off to many many places i wanna.visit
..tIme tO cUm baCk to ReAlItY..

apart from the tons of work i recieved in sch..
based on my checklist..
there are still papers for me to dO..
overdue hw to b exact!!

had Maths O Lvl Paper(jUne) today
well..
those qns tt are suppose to b left out are A maths qns..
well, hopefully Paper 1 alone i could get 65 n above..
o pretty pls~!

shall do my target setting once again:
I'm devasted!
English - c5/b4
Chinese - c6
Maths - a2/b3
C. Science - b4, worse cum to worst c5!
C. Humans - c5/b4
F&N - c5/b4

in that case, L1R4 - a range from 18 to 23
SiHui u mus do it!!
hoping for the best!! (,")

2005-10-04T20:44:00.000+08:00

haPpY bIrThDaY tO aLvIn aKa sOtOng!!

mon morning..mr chew left s'pore for england..
hais..3am flight..
barely had a chance to slp..

it's like less than 12 hr after he left..
i wan him back to teach us geo!
oMg!
Penguin n others in my class shld koe WhY~?

ZzZ..
zZz..
zZz..
zZz..
zZz..

lesson sian daO~ *pEng- O!*

life's so boring!

felt like diving myself into a pool..
i m tired..
dead beat tired..
i wanna go for a swim..oh boy!

aNd hOw was the prom nite thing goin on..

...
...
...

Mr Raj n Mr Sidek.
addressed us abt the prom - grad nite..
erm.
same as usual..seems nth got improve..
aRgH~!

wan to get out of this sch for a prom nite
like wad Mr Raj say..
it is a honour for us to b in sch for prom nite..
as no other sch can do it in our sch hall!
*dIaO*
-_____-"

puasa started tomolo..
shall get myself a kebaya..
going penguin hse during the season..heex..
gonna make sum cakes or kueks..heex.. =)

lotsa hugs.. take care!

2005-10-01T23:01:00.000+08:00

Life Is Full of Emotions
Life Is Freaking Egregious

happy two mths to u!!
*heex*
<3

firstly, i wanna thnks u for the past few weeks..
been with me..n giving me a new trust in love.. =X
if not for u.. i tink i m still in the s*** hole that sumbody had created..
*nah nah*
secondly, thnk you for the present..
thou u had say many times u wan to buy..
but i did not believe till today..
u make the purchase..
erm.. wat else can i say..
simply touched bah..
thou u made me paiseh in mrt jus now..
*hais*
hope u nv repeat wad u done in MRT jus now - again!

went out with him jus now..
did nth much..
supposing today must eat cheese cake n catch a movie de..
but then.. Mr Penguin broke liao..
just for the present he gave me..
okok..i liked it very much..thnk you!! <3

den we go ard Jurong Point & City Hall
jus to look for dress or skirt or attire for the grad nite..
yea!! school having grad nite on 30 nov!!
haha..gonna look forward to how my frens r dressed up? heex!

ok..sumhow the penang trip is 99.9% confirm..
as quoted from Ms Tan!!
yea!
tt the best part..
i seems like enjoying myself..
n my wishes soon came true!
m i dreaming??

as for my results..
hais..it sucks like hell..
nt goin to elaborate more..
sad..

racing against time..
tick tock!

2005-09-25T21:01:00.000+08:00

sold my N5100 for 75 bucks..ytd
bought it back to its homeland..
haha..
lucky i gt the extra base..
or else my phone will nt worth 75..
n that must thnks tt bapok!!

uh-huh...
went down to sim lim sq
for a hunt of the mp3..
all the ipod shuffle is selling at $170+
=( but only gt one shop is selling at $165...
cheap cheap~~

ard 4 me n him take mrt all the way to airport..
bo liao hor..
maybe we too free liao~
go there see planes..
den suddenly he asked me abt the EOY trip
to penang..
hais..
4 days overseas..
hais..

-PeNgUiN`
u promise if i really go..
u will come airport n find me..
n send me off!!
tt is our promise..
n u will fetch me too..
tt ur word!
u mus made it.! =) <3

bought the ipod shuffle today..
haha..$170+ at habourfront..
haha..dad spoon out sum money..
den he say,"u are nt allow to bring it to sch, so i used it on mon to fri"
aRgH~!
anyway..
life is such..

can i say..i commited a sin..?
i "tok" to papaya jus now..
for the past 2 to 3 mths we nv tok..
thru msn..i wish him good luck for his n lvl..
pEnGuIn nv say its ok..
i mean..
he oso dun wan to see mi n papaya
to b in this way..
hais..
yi yan nan jing~

no matter wad.
i had make my choice..
life is such..
pEnGuIn, my only one..<3

2005-09-23T22:59:00.000+08:00

all i could describe today..
IT SUCKS~!

firstly i send my N5100 for sale..
god damn tat bapok hp dealer..
his nails are pathetically long..
den he cant open my casing/cover..
he used his nails..
to poke!
damn it~!
den he put a constipation face on him..
den kept chanting he cant open it up..
he handed it over to me..
*tick*
i opened the thing within one sec..
he complained this n tat..
OmG~!
tat wasnt the worst case..
guess wad he say..

I OPEN UR CASING.. I SCARE WILL BREAK MY NAILS LEI..~!

no one word to describe..
but one word - GROSS~!
den my casing now is broken and the nail-poking scar is on my casing.
the casing is torn..
the cover for covering up the charger n ear piece is torn..
n that is to thnks to his nails too!
damn it man!
he made spoilt n he say i made spoilt.

nxt he say,
"u see ar..i put the charger inside..no detection saying the phone is charging."
den my dear penguin walked next to him..
duno wad he do?
den penguin told him,
"there...charging already ma.."
den tat bapok hp dealer so paiseh!!!
haha..

hey a**h***..
at least i nv call u to refund mi..
u must b peeing in ur pants liao..
fr the price i can sell is $80..
den u f***ing a** h*** go adjust till my phone
is tattered n torn..
give garang guni..i dun even think they wan..
den u bloody hell wan to charge mi $40..
damn u..
aku phone actually can sell $100 dollars
just a few steps away from ur shop lei..
u taik! give my hp "free massaging"
till the phone now like not even like phone..
damn u man!
u a** h***..

nv ask u refund...
nv used match stick n burn ur shop u happy liao lor..
still duno gt how many stupid ppl like mi..
gt cheated by u..
bloody b***ard!
*opps*
forgot u r a bapok!

secondly,
went to his hse..wanted to make iced lemon tea..
to be exact is tapole iced lemon tea..
den forgot to buy tapole..
=(

just simply becus of tt phone thing..
it spoilt my mood for the entire day..
!! argh !!

f***!

but finally my prelims r over..
gt to take a 2 days rest..
and cont to chiong for o's!!

2005-09-17T21:20:00.001+08:00

HaPpY bElAtEd bUrFdAe tO aNdY(16.09)
hApPy bElAtEd bUrFdAe To pApA.jUnJiE(14.09)
HaPpY bElAtEd bUrFdAe tO JuN wEi(13.09)
lAsTly,
HaPpY bElAtEd bDaE tO pEnGuIn(12.09) <3

Alvamar Overture- James Barnes

i finally went back "home"

home sweet home..

it is olways that pleasant to go back..

just like today,

Mr Chew announced that he gonna bring us up to Penang..

hOoRaY!

by flight~ nt coach =)

i wan to fly~!

finally can go overseas with my beloved band!!

my one and only~!!

in the afternoon..

went out with him to beach rd n sengkang..

shop shop..

we go do the couple military tag..

make sum ~~crap~~ music thru his phone..

but it turned out to b a nice one =X

den went back to northpont..

shop again..

spotted one frenship card..

='(

gt the urge to buy tat and sent it someone..

but will that person understand my words..

will that person koe what i trying to say this few months..

hais..

Heatherwood Potrait - James Barnes

listening to the cd that Shi-Fu

burnt for me..

haha..

tmr alex's bdae..

Ah_dI..

JiE here wish u happy bdae in advance..

n hope u and ur dar dar stay on till death! =)

mus study hard liao..

Mr Ed. Chew sms Penguin say i only got 20 for my geo =(

stupid mi..

mixed up geo n maths map reading methods..

the formula all rojak liao~!

aRgH!

hate myself!!

Auntie Boop.Uncle Boop Boop!<3

2005-09-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

prelims finally started..
felt so stress..
expecially for Geo..
arGh!
ah-chew said it gonna b a tough paper..
sTrEsS~!

Manufacturing just wouldn get inside my head..
aRgH!!
pEnGuIn n I stress till sick liao..
den we panicked cus we oso kanna mosquitoes bite..
den we realised it's all a false alarm..

SS paper was a killer one..
i dun even understand the Background Info
how to answer the qns??
read the sources more blur liao~~!!
hais..
sian..
everything is goin the wrong way..
argh!!

jus now saw mOo mOo~ aka papaya..
den both mi n penguin reaction was like
it's been a long time since we saw him!
i mean i felt as if i gt weeks nv see him le..
but pls..
he is no longer in my heart
since the day he choose to b my past tense..
argh!
was listening to the radio when he came in with his fren..
den the DJ broadcast Tong Hua~!
aRgH~!
that makes mi damn sad!!
cus that song was the first song i sang to him!!
aRgH~!

sHiFu burnt for me a band cd
xie xie ni~
listen to the music..
made mi think of the past..
memories..
i had to face it rite..

no matter wad..
this is my new chpt..
a brand new mi..
mOo mOo is my past tense..
sihui mus jiayou!!

elephant n monkey simply just sucks!
get lost! n stop "conquering" Sun Plaza
as it is is urs!?
DamN yOu gUyS -BaStArd!-

2005-09-10T19:44:00.000+08:00

YOU SUCKS!

u go away!
this time round i m serious abt it!

2005-09-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

got to pull myself out of bed..
*yAwN~!*

okiie..
had eng mock exam in school..
the exam/lesson was a swift flow..
not until when Ms Ng wanted us to go thru our answers..
we upset her by making lots of noise
*nOiSe pOlLuTiOn* =X
despite her warning(s)
we guys continue making noise..ZzZ
tat was why she bloated up~!

went to study at Mac and Mos..
till 3+ when he came back from sch for his D&T folio..

i bought tat TiggEr~!!

headed to the Prata Place at Upper Thomson Rd..
Mr Chew trted us makkan..
sadly, only 8 of us turned up..
the rest.. i m not too sure abt it..
well, the food was nice..
*tHuMbS uP*
but i can see Mr Chew was abit unhappy lar..
=(

another sad news tat broke to me late afternoon..
England lost to Nth Ireland..
oH man!
1-0 was the score..wad happen?
aRgH!~! wadeva it is..England must try their best to enter the World Cup next year..
hAiyO~
in addition, nxt year will b at Germany..
Time will be a problem..
=(

shall end my entry here..
nite guys..
sweet honey dreams~!
*pOo~!*

2005-09-05T21:34:00.000+08:00

hey~
today was the start of the n lvl for sum of the ppl..
best wishes/. n good luck~

in addition,
the o lvl grad students went to SP experience..
saddest things =(
firstly, couldnt realyl koe the COP for the course i wan
secondly, unable to go Option F as mi n him wanted to koe more abt a certain course..
thirdly, i saw this S&K in the retail shop at SP..cool n nice..cant buy as not enuff cash`
fourth, cannot see brandon n JusT =( *miss them yea~*

after the whole SP trip,
mi n him went to Jurong Point..
eat eat shop shop`

after tt,
i went down to bishan..
to acc Rina cut hair..
n she bought herself one billabong skirt..
*ArGh~!*
den she meet Jim at Mrt..
while mi shop ard awhile den go cinema
meet the others..
we watched one more chance
giving it 9/10 for tat movie..nice movie..
yea~!

ate swenses for dinner..
Aunt gave us a treat for that..
(,") yea~! (",)
suppose to have the plan to go back Alpha Studio..
but time!!!
it's time to go home..
aRgH!
i miss Alpha`
other time sorry guys`

missing the guy who change my life n way of thinking <3

2005-09-02T20:12:00.000+08:00

ok.. shall start off sumtink pleasant..
HaPpY T-ChErS' DaY!
thou it is a belated one`
on wed after celebration
went to eat at pizza hut..
n watch movie at Tampiness..
Herbie : Fully reloaded!
Herbie 53
it is nice! 9/10
it's abt a car -VW (Herbie 53) obviously!
which had a mind of his own
cool!?
recommended by mi to u
to grab a tix n place ur butt therE!!!

ytd was our 1st month
*yEa~*
suppose to do sumtink more interesting..
but we all lack of planning~!
*dIaOx*

so we went to TCC for lunch..
den walk around town..
around 5+
went back to smb..
as we got this intention of cooking..
went to his hse..
cook sum simple dishes..
n guess how much we only spend for the entire dinner?
2 bucks odd..near 3 bucks..
haha..
cus we only buy two items..
namely - tofu n beef
LOL!!
1st dish - Fried Tofu
2nd dish - Beef with Potatoes
3rd dish - Carrot with Potatoes (aGaIn!? but its for him only)
nice! *thumbs up!*
watched abit of super star den went home..

went back to sch today..
nth much..
but fear was on mi the whole day
n i duno y..
dun seems to b on my mind..
i m not focus!!
wat the ~!
sms him so long at 630 nv reply..
i m so pissed..
making mi worried
is the only thing he can do?
hais..
pek chek! aRgH!!!
sian!!!

prelims cuming..
so is the blood-sucking o!!
wat!?
y like tt nehx!!??
i m taking a deep breathe!!

2005-08-27T20:12:00.000+08:00

MOTIVATION!

went out with him ytd..
after his gym training with vick
while mi n jan were at mac studying..
intensive studying indeed!
but we were disturbed sum typical china boys
sorry no offence..
but they r really making the two of us
ArGh~!!

first they scold vuglarities like fcuk sia.!
scold oso duno how to scold..
n their vulgarities like lao hong!
*air escaping words*
OmG~!
den they were doing lame stuff like turning the coin
n tossing them..
like wad jan said,"get a life!"

den we were heading town..
when we catch up with naveen!
long time no see..
no lar..only a week or so bah..
glad tat he is doing fine~
den mi n him went town..
the rest went home..

den we go shop at suntec..
i m suppose to buy sumtink for him
for our 1st month..
but he wans to follow~
-______-"
so it was like erm..
lied to him saying tat
i m buying present for t-cher's day..
argh!!
haha..i m a better liar than u, DB!!
=PpPpPpPp
shh!!

after that,
we went down to esplanade..
see stars n ate dinner together..
uh-um.. we packed food there obviosuly!
duh!~
n went home at 10.. =]

today went out again..
did nth much..
suppose wanted to study..
but certain things strike at the wrong time..
no motivation to study!
aRgH!
den went city hall area..
sian..
he wanted to buy the cushion..
=] but then..hais..
yi yan nan jing!!
mus finish up my F&N!
n i m craving for food!!!!
*hungry*

2005-08-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

happy bdae to my son-Wei Sheng & Melvyn!
happy belated bdae to Jess n Alvin!

wOohOo!!
on sunday slayers had a match..
n i was there finally to support!!
2-0!!
i love slayers..
u guys r the best!!
*tHuMbS uP*
great job done!
expecially to Andy & RJ..

had a good chat with the girls..
miss ya girls!!
*hUgGiEs*

secondly, i wanna say a million sorry
to someone..
i m sorry if i had hurt ur heart..
didn realise my mistake
until i was blog-hopping..
i mean..
i koe i had hurt u since the starting
of this yr..
but things r made in this way
such that we had to b truthful n blunt at times..
this is my choice..
i had made it..
i koe u might not take it..
or need time to realise..
u had taught me that
we got live life to the fullest..
just like wat u say, based on ur character n quality..
sure gt ppl admire de lor..
u shld koe hu i m refering to..
but this is life n this is the fact..
i send my deepest graditude to u..
that we can b fren for life~

i m so stress out by sch work!
trillions n zillions tons of hw..
kept falling onto me!!
oh mY~!
*oUcH!*
i m suffocating..
!!

can sumone tell mi if i m growing fat??
cus' my dearest Ning.Zukiko say i m turning fat!!!
=(
am i???

just cant sum bitches!!
cant just they shut their gap!
this is the new life style..
read it! 21st century..
love is ur own choice..
love doesnt need reasons..
neither looks that matter..
it is the heart tat matter..
dun say ppl ugly..
cus u guys arent pretty either..
cant stand them!
get a life man!

2005-08-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

strong objections!!
wateva..
just becus of this stupid strong objections
from my parents..
that i shldn be dating now..
they r looking after me so strict
who m i with..
where i m going..
seems to b the only questions
they could ask mi this days..
*sIgh*
if only i am as fortunate as sparks..
*eNvIoUs*
sumtimes had to pretend i duno him..
so sad =(
take for example jus now..
sickening!
not in order to get the both of us caught..
we had to walk a distant apart
all the way to the MRT station..
sick of my life
that is been control!
just hope o lvl can pass by jus like a zOoM~
n my worrys will b all over!!

darling_ <3 -
i m sorry jus now..
had to pretend..
everything was just for show..
i koe u dun mind..
but i koe it is tiring to act in this way..
sorry!!! =(

went to his hse to do revision..
taught him maths..
work hard!! play hard too!! =X
den watch abit of movie
with his cousin n siblings..
n we went to causeway to get present
for Jessilyn.. =)
happy bdae Jess in advance!!

supposing tml..
going out with SpArKs!!
finally..
we can get together..
after months?
i think!
i miss the 3 of u!!
*hUgGiEs*

to someone:
dun giv mi tt smile..
cus the sight of u
only make mi more angry
n pissed!
u simply just sucks!!

2005-08-18T22:05:00.000+08:00

happy bdae tammy!!

felt so lost..
even with him by my side..
uncontrollabe life..
things cum in and goes out
of my life just like that..
without mi noticing..

the day before ytd..
had a tiff with him..
he tried to make end meet..
but stubborn me..
just kept ignoring him..
the next day,
he surprised me..
i tink only he will did this to me..
nobody else will..
he waited for me at bus stop
which i told him not to..
as i told him a lie the day before..
he is the first guy to do this.
i used to think the other guy will do this..
but i was wrong..
he - my sweetheart..
was the one..
darling, i love u!!!

had my oral just now
i was like OMG~!
wateva..wad done is done..
hais..

n he finally finish his project..
3 cheers for him!!
haha..

the saddest thing tt upset my mind today
was mum questioned me abt us..
i deny the fact..
i m so stress out by her questionings..
i knew she will say," dun date now, ur duty is to study!"
i knew it since the begining..
oh..god damn it~
tt wasnt the worst..
until mum asked abt his race..
i nodded..
her respone was the one that upsets me ..
it kills my mood for the rest of my day..

things will soon b reveal one day...
trying my best to hide from the truth
the untold-truth..

no matter wad i will b by ur side..
<3 yOu!

2005-08-16T22:20:00.000+08:00

ytd was his sister's bdae..
happy belated to Siti..=)

we suppose to stay at his hse eat dinner
but then his dad called say
gO out eat..
i was so scared..
haha..
den we go eat..
his dad was solemn..
scare the hell out of me..

hais...tt was ytd..
today was alright..
till jus now cum out study..
we quarrelled..
again, over such small matter..
hais..
wonder when can we stopped all these nonsense..

i started to wonder if we..
shld have been together..
felt shattered at this moment..

how could u say u koe me well
when i dun even koe myself..?

the old me is cuming back..
hais..
y?
i entrust my happiness with u..
yet u broke it..
i m shattered again..
going back to stranded..
i tink i will nv recover from
emotionally stranded.

i wan sum peace!

2005-08-14T12:25:00.000+08:00

well..
i felt so worn out after the war..
felt so discouraged..
one of my strong sub..
yet i got a c6 for that..
wtf!
but i got face the fact..
that's the truth..
like what mich had say,
the truth is olways tt hurtful..

Kiat got a b3 for himself..
Ron gt b4 while Roan gt b3..
oMg~
my fren n cousin r doin much better than me...
WTF!
well not pulling ppl down or
pointing fingers at ppl
the most unexpected was jan..
no one expect her to get a b3..
tt the glory or joy part..
for my class, no one gets higher than b3..
means, no As..*for chi*
those hu expect to get good grades didn
those who expect to fail pass..

for malay lang.
Raiza n Ain gt As..
btw, 100% passes for malays..
WoOhOo~!
he gt b4..
but he seems to b sad..
hais..

tok with Sparks, Xin, Ning, Simone n others
they encourage me to retake..
but not Kiat..
hais..

forget abt it..
fall sick liao..
his mum cook an Indian dish for me
thnks auntie!! it sumhow cure me..
but the next morning..
the flu came back..
aRgH!!!
i m sweating..when others dun..
ppl felt hot..i felt cold..
WTF!!
hais..
sick-y.me!!

btw, we got our class tee shirt on thurs..
wOohOo!! =)

shall stop here..gonna do my revision~

2005-08-08T11:53:00.000+08:00

happy bdae to Singapore!!
happy national day to all S'poreans

had sch celebration..
firstly tot i was the odd one..
cus white top and a not-so-red-bottoms..
however,
debbie and others wore the same colour matching too`

he suppose to go for his D&T
to do his work..
but he said nobody's goin..
so he oso not going..
den we went makkan brkfast
with huda and sheila..
makkan till 12
acc him go back his hse take money..
but all i can say..i nv go in his hse..
nt like wad u guys dirty thinking siax~!
haha..

den went to PS..
aim was to watch movie..
but we ended up shoppin
around 2+ den go up buy tics..
found out the quene was so long..
make mi BTH~!
den change of plan..
went cineleisure..
by 3+, we had grabbed sum food
den go buy tics..
but it did so happen that 3/4 of the cinema
was packed and guess wat time slot of the movie is..
5.20pm`
omg!!
watched wedding crashes..
NC16!!!
the movie was indeed sexually _____.
no wonder it is a NC-16 show!
the actors kept saying the F word..
and the most hilarious one was
the actor was been touched by....
oMg~!
shant elaborate but u guys shld get ur butt on the seat for the show!!
d*** vulgar and pervert!!
LOL!!!
overall i grade 6.5 or 7 for the movie..
=)

but sum how sum ting happen..
me went to mac to tok with one of our god-sis..
den he came from his hse..
tok tok tok..
but hopefully everything is fine now..
today was so hectic..`

080805 is oso 1 week for me n him..
<3 ya!
sumtink to tell [him] :
it is only a week
yet we r facing so much probs..
tis is part of life..
i koe..
like u said jus now..
these r the tests for us..
we mus overcome them..
most impt is putting trust in the relationship..
i understand now, my dear..
miss ya~

2005-08-05T22:49:00.000+08:00

i use to tot
he will nv b replace..
but i was wrong till
last mon - 010805
i got to know that i was wrong
entirely wrong..

for the past few days,
i reflect my tots
there are certain things..
he cant do for me..
while the other guy
who is willing to wait for me
can do it for me..
i wondered,
am i so selfish
that i always think abt that guy
who doesnt even care
abt my feelings towards him
and completely forgotten the guy right beside
who actually stood by me
whenever i am sad..
whenever that person made me cry..
i am so blinded by that guy's love
that i hardly notice abt the guy
who is waiting for me
he see me suffer
a pain that that inked on him
despite it is an indirect attack..

friends gave mi advices
and encouragement..
which i think really me woke up..
why am i so blinded by his love
when he appriciated..
where is he when i m in sorrow..
where is he when i really need him
when i really need his support
did he ever appear right beside me
and gave me a pat on the shoudler
and wish good luck or sumtink?

when 2 parties were quarrelling..
will u ever stand by me..
and protect me as a guy shld do..
maybe i dun even wish for u to be standing with me..
or maybe b neutral
tried to pull the 2 parties together..
have u ever do that..
NO U DIDN..
but the guy hu is waiting for me..
he will either stand by me
or be the advisor
to bring the 2 parties together..
dependin on the situation..

my friends-
they used to support me
of achieving my dreams
with u..
but in shortly few months
everything change
they support the guy
rather than u
despite they only koe him this yr
have u ever imagine..
they knew u since they koe me..
the relation will so strong-bonded
for the past few months
yet they rather choose a stranger than u..
what went wrong..
no body knew..
no body bother to ask
maybe only me, u and them have the ans..

u bring me to heaven
n pushed me down..
this is ur decision
i can do nth ...
i m hurt..

since the day i made up my mind
of becoming the new-me
i koe i shldn shed any more tears for u..

went to sch gym after sch
with mich, sirat, hanafi, vic n jan..
did the cycle thingy
n i m aching now!
omg~!

they had rehearsal jus now
popped by..
didn notice that papaya was there..
explosion..when i saw him..
no one he was there!
wtf!
nvm..
new me dun even care abt papaya..
who cares..

ard 7+
go cwp with mich
to find her D&T stuff
ended up buying things...
hais..

LOVE is such complicated thing
only when u r in love..
u will koe how simple it actually is...

a chance is given...
a promise is made..
-010805*

2005-07-30T23:42:00.000+08:00

went to sch in the morning..
celebrate Mailing n Elwin's bdae..
had a cake...
gave them surprises..
sang the bdae song as a whole
in the band room
=)
den they were suppose to play water bomb
but i left early
moreover i m suffering fr a big headache..

went down to army market
in the early afternoon
with mich, abang asrol, sirat,naz, fad, JY
den fad went off for his kompang thing at boon lay
den the rest go PS to shop..
bought the op pants,XL's present,a pencil box and new story book
=)
den alvin, nich n wei xiang joined us..
ended up each of us went shopping ard..
abang asrol, sirat n JY went to yamaha shop
opps! btw naz went to meet his girl
den alvin n gang went shopping i tink so..
den mi n mich go ate gelare!
FATS!
IT'S NTH BUT FATS FATS FATS!

haha..
den abang asrol n JY went home..
headed down to esplande
having a great nite there..
saw fireworks..
so romantic..!!
if only u r here..

after the fireworks n all,
mi, mich, sirat, alvin, weixiang, willey,nich, norman n victor
went to Lau Pat Sat n makkan..
there -i had the second slice of the cake of the day..
celebrated Willey's bdae..
thou his was way long gone..
still i wanna wish him n the other 2..
a happy bdae or belated!!

in reality
i miss the times we had..
then,
i walked past the Merlion Park
i looked at mich..
tears seems to be uncontrollable..
but mich gave mi a pad on my shoulder..
i mus b strong!

2005-07-28T21:58:00.000+08:00

happy birthdae to mummy n sharon`

today had my F&N prac
for coursework part [b]
everything went well
*thumbs up*

my heart skipped a beat the other day..

went back for band..
shahirah, joey n ahboon too
justina too..
had parade for the national day thingy
argh!
just as then,
shahirah told me sumtink
but i can only tell u this..
if u really wan to tell mi anything
go ahead..
but dun kept me thinking..

1 more week to my result
for the o lvl MT!
4 more weeks to my prelim..
damn!
102 days to my o lvl exam`

just when i was recoverin
from this illness
call emotionally stranded..
u came into the picture again..
u will the cause of this illness..
now what u wan!

2005-07-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

when the chance is here,
grab it
cherish it
hold it tight..
dun ever let it go..
i had learnt my lesson..
but have u?

went out to beach rd
with mich, erfy,zub, nazzer, fadli, leo,sirat n zoelyn
to do the class tee..
finally we r on the last lap of the race..
*phew!*

hopefully it will b done by this sat.. =)

ytd was xuan's bdae..
happy belated bdae girl
sorry i didn attend ur dinner =(
had to visit my grandma in the hosp
gt time den meet up okae??

so as i was sayin..
go visitin in the hosp
granny had admitted into hosp
for an operation last tues..
i cant really recognized her at first glance..
but ok..
she slimmed down abit..
she still cant eat nor drink
tt pitiful huh..
i tink she will discharged by next week..

it is still the memories
that was kept in my heart..

2005-07-21T21:35:00.000+08:00

racial harmony = peace!

sch commemorates Racial Harmony today
we r suppose to dress up in our enthic costumes
but then
the saddest n abit-regret thing was nt to wear..
ok..
so we suppose to wear..
n i suppose to wear zub's kebaya..
but due to sum reasons
the girls didnt wear
except for Sharon and Jan..
Jan gt herself the fifth position
in the entire sch for best dress..
while Denise got herself for the top..
wooh! cool!?

lessons as per usual..
collect debts from teachers n frens
for the class tee shirt thingy..
=)
after sch as well,
we were huntin t-chers for money..
den Mrs Lim claimed i slack alot since the term start
hais..
slack?
yea i admit i am slacking..
hais..
wake up sihui!
u gt less than 110 days to ur o lvl!!
buck up man!!

everythin was a madness!!
in a whirl pool of dilemma..

n i didn koe the band is havin
a 25 piece band performance tml!!
oh nO!
i gt the faith in u guys!!
=)
*cheerOs*

savin money for this sat's outing again`
i wan a new pencil box!!
b more clothes!!!

maybe staying single is much more better than attached..
i tot u will nv be replaced..
sure n true enuff
u will not..
but since we choose to becum strangers..
it's hurting n painful if i cont on..
i found it rather ridiculous
for us - a frenship of 4 yrs..
yet nv tok for 1 whole month..
nt even a single word..
i m devasted!

2005-07-19T19:26:00.000+08:00

sorry but i shed my virgin tears
for the new me..
yesterdae..
didn really shed much..
just that tears welled up in my eyes
it finally rolled down
when winston asked me is it becus of him
*during maths supp*
sry but i really cant take it..
it is really him tat make mi cry again..
tt wad i hate it..
but everything got to go..
memories shall stay
but u choose to leave..
6 mths..
i gave u 6mths to think..
dun blame any of us for this..
no one is to blame..
jus take it the fact...
i tink we shant b bother abt this
cus since we r trting each other like strangers..
dun regret for wadeva u had done..
so i will nt regret..
i choose to stay on for the past 8 mths..
de pain will nv be erased..
till the day i m gone
or mayb found the guy of my life..
the memories will nv b replaced..

secondly,
if i had worry u guys ytd..
i m fine now..
after much counselling from my frens..
and so,
today i stood on firm..
classmates stood by me
poked at that guy hu disrupted my life..
*obviously nt him, but a childish fren of his*
for special detail i will nt tell u
unless u approached me..
tt guy is indeed childish..
wanna thnks bao.mu n mag..
for wat they had done to
tt childish fren of his..

to tt childish fren of xiao mu gua`:
dun try to act cool..when u arent..
dun try to act beng when u arent..
dun try to act innocent when u arent..
dun try to act xia lan when u r such a coward..!

12th Jan 2005 is just a normal day..
nth great had happen..
just a day to go by
a day for me to count down to my o lvl
a day for me to count down to my step down fr band
a day for me to count down to SYF!
nth big deal happen tat day!!

.new me.
?

2005-07-17T12:39:00.000+08:00

everything was just a lie..
i had enough of all these..
i want to end this off..
but i am too cruel..
why m i so stubborn..
i shld have listen to them
almost everyone seems to b suffering
from this thing call love..
since it is so hurtful
y ppl still keepin fallin love

i nv fall for u..
is u tripped me over..`

i mus nt let my mind ran away
from today onwards
i wan to b a new me.
concentrate on my work..
i mus b strong..
i mus stand up strongly..
no matter how strong the wind is
or the current is
i need to stand firm!
new me!

saying good bye//

dun tink i m missing u anymore`

2005-07-16T22:17:00.000+08:00

i need oxygen to breathe

fri had my last o lvl MT paper
it was drizzling after the paper..
caught in the rain..
but happen to reach RC on time
to get back my phone
while the rest report for their Malay paper..
so here it goes,
i was told tat at 5
tat our sch gt gas leak
oMg~!
den the police came n combed the area
the students chase out of sch
while the candidates were sent to Smb pri.
uh-huh..
didn wait for them
me n mich went off first..
go look for my bag..

jus nw
went town/bugis/beach road
with Sirat, Mich, Leo, Fad n Hanafi
gt the encraving done
n guess what?
we found a shop
which sells our 30-piece shirts
at $7 each..
cool deal!?
so got a new supplier
n hope this made it well`
=)
join the malay dancers at PS
for their SYF in the city
den went home..
ZzZ`
oh ya..
bought myself bag at bugis..
erm..dono if it suits me well =S
hopefully i tink..

leaving soon?

114 days more for me to study!!

2005-07-14T20:39:00.000+08:00

i am falling..

had my F&N coursework [B] today
stoned inside com lab doin up the thingy
after sch..
2 hrs in the lab..
n tml is my fcuking o lvl MT
last paper~!
*shouting for joy!!!!*
-clap clap-

slack at KFC abt the tee shirt thingy
with Nazzer, Mich, Sirat, Abang Asrol
Fadli, Hanafi n of cus me!
25 is nt a very good number =X

if i continute shedding tears
i will only harm me myself n him..
dun wanna drag him along with me
this is my life..n he has his own
just pretty pls hope that
frens stop shooting at him
he koe nth abt this..
this is my prob..
it's nt his..
none of his business..
leave him alone`

i wanna buy a new bag new pencil box pls
o pretty pls,
money pls..
money cum rolling
i need real hot cash to buy these stuff
gosh~
i need them badly!!
goin town again this weekend
with the gang..!

town here i cum!!
so is sentosa for nxt sat!! =)

shld i cont counting down?
116 more days to my o's??
wat the heck!

2005-07-13T19:04:00.000+08:00

fallin on every steps i took to the way up heaven..

Girls' way of thinking abt PROMISES` :
promise mus fulfil it..
don ever break the promise..
cus girls hate ppl hu brk their promise..

but,

Boys' way of thinking abt PROMISES`:
it's ok nt to fulfil it..
girls made the promise
den mus fulfil n do it..
it is ok for us, guys nt to..
promise r meant to b broken..

deep inside me,
i m thinking of the promises
that guys used to swore to heaven n god
that they will keep the promise..
but now i tink it is completely nth but crap..
just simply sweet talking..
or maybe was i too naive to believe them..
sorry no offence to anybody out there..
maybe i m too lenient..
or maybe sumbody took the advantage
of my weakness of been kind..
knowing that i will giv ppl chances
despite the numerous anger or fight..
thinking that i will forgiv u again n again..
but as a fren,
i put my trust on u..
i tot u r a man of ur words..
keeping the promise that u say..
maybe i shldn take it too serious with the words..
knowing everything was just a great white lie

today,
ms ng nv cum..
free period..
discuss abt the class tee thingy..
so guess wad now?
sharon's design against fad's design
erm..so it was pretty obvious that Fad's won..
erm.. pretty ok with everything
cus i tot sharon's was cute..
while Fad's is manly n style
so got to settle everything..
send things up to supplier real soon
before sumthing or sumbody is gone` =)

after sch,
had lunch in sch
with Mich, Abang Asrol, JY, Hanafi n Sirat..
den i go find Ms Tan for the testi thingy.
while they went for D&T..
me waited for them in canteen...
*guai kia study..* =X

den we went lepak..
at 6 went home..
i felt so stress for tml..
aRgH~
prepare for "war"
goin do my research..=]

the last chance - 82 days..
my o lvls - 117 days

2005-07-11T22:19:00.000+08:00

just came back from town..
with mich..
went to bugis area to do some grabbing
of her D&T stuff..
den went shopping

the wallet is still not on the shelf..
=S
hunt for tee-shirt supplier
at far east..
get quite a handful lobangs..
hopefully can do the tee-shirt thingy
by end of this month =)

my brain is cracking!!!!

getting better?

2005-07-09T22:46:00.000+08:00

one word to sum up today..
SHOPPING!!!

meet Sirat n Nazzer at mrt
while waiting for mich saw him..
Sirat was so shocked by his action`
i was like u duno abt that?
wateva!

so we went to beach road
aka army market
the 4 of us got ourselves
each a military tag`
i encraved "Kichiko" =)
den happen to see one shirt supply shop
guess how much was the price
for making 33 class tee shirt
$12 each!
sooooooooo cheap!!
oMg!

den we walked to Bugis..
the guys went to get
sum D&T coursework materials
while mi n mich went bugis street..
den shop for mich's bag..
den hanafi joined us..
took mrt to somerset - heeren
to get my wallet..

tokin which,
that wallet was the last one on the shelf..
n gosh man!
u koe wad..
it is nt the wallet that
mi n mich saw last week
moreover, i was told this wallet
came in only ydae..
seems like a hot catch ya!?
mich didnt buy nt becus it was the last one
but there's not her fav colour =S
here came one grp of
almost-my-age-girls
they wanted to buy that wallet.
den they kept quiet for awhile
while i make my payment
den tis girl spoke,
"u really wan to buy that wallet arh?"
i was like,
"erm.. ya"
den she kept lookin at the wallet
from the guy at the counter took off the tag
to putting the wallet in the plastic bag
to paying my cash
to handling my reciept n change
i was so guilty
but sorry, i gt that first.. =\

den we walked to ngee ann city
to get Sirat his phone
but ~~damn it!~~
the guy say need parents' I/C
despite he is applying for student plan
argh!
poor Sirat..

got a bite at BK at borders
ate too full n almost vomit..
wat the hell man!!!
argh!!
sihui, look at ur diet pls!!!

i m so happy..
maybe gt the things that i longed for..
=)

a day when i left my tears dry..

2005-07-07T21:02:00.000+08:00

why is everyone suffering from ~~depression~~ today?
wad's wrong?

me shed tears..
yea me..
dun ask me why..
close fren of mine shld know..
=[
i m a troubled.teenx..

jus ended my call with twinny.vonne!!
thnks girl for ur encouragement n ur testi! =)
sista for life!! =) <3 u!!
hahax..
yea..i agree
we used to share probs together
crack our heads to tink of solutions
those will the days~

yes! i finally gt that puny brush
out of my darling.eupho!!
wanna thnks lingwei n cyn for their help!!
=)

lepak after sch..
but everyone seems so down..
haix..
suppose to discuss abt the class tee..
den duno the commitee "fly" here "fly" there
in the end, oso nth done!
argh!!

i wanna get a new wallet soon!
sorry RJ the wallet u gave me
less than 2 weeks
the storage for coins is like ...
sorry!

going town mayb on sat
..gonna rush things thru this whole week!
argh~
oral tml
wish mi good luck!! =)

may i shld

2005-07-04T12:28:00.000+08:00

Happiness is the destination
Hurt is the process

happy bdae to powen!!
17 liiao lor!

moreover, today is
USA's national day`

maybe i shld take their advice
didn go study with the gurls ydae..
instead went bugis for the food fair
with mum,dad,vonne and vonne's mum
the prata tat wrap with choco, cheese n banana
was nice..yummy!!

day was abit crappy
before the shoppin start
after the eating part
cus my d*** phone lost its vibration again..
n i jus sent it for repair
was sent back only on tues..
d***!
ArGh!
n thnks god,
my mum n dad initially
ask me to change my phone
infact was encourage me to!!
my parents' mood were different!
they infact allow me to buy a cap
but i turned down the offer =[

k so,
later goin out to study
with mich n tikus..
suppose to go out to have an outing
at smb park
but duno wat went wrong in the process
its ok..
we will have one rite?
hahas..

i commited a sin-
of missin him again..
i shldnt b doin this
erm..wad's wrong now?
haix..
mayb it is really time to giv up
but wat if i cant..
haix..
can sumone help me~!
mayb we r fated to meet
n fall in love with one another
just the time interval nt rite..
we r nt meant to be together.
=[

let.natue.takes.its.course

study!!

2005-07-02T21:49:00.000+08:00

I have tried to go on like I never knew you
I am awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I am going to be is incomplete

Those days are gone, and I want so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

abv were the lyrics of Backstreet boys
they will my fav.band in my pri sch days
hum..
5 years back
missin my pri sch life..

had geo lesson this morning..
lesson ends at 930
den the whole grp went
relax at suyfan's block
went home only at 4..

life was so depressed this few days..
i duno y..
at first i see sum hope tat u giv..
but now,
mayb it's the results of not havin enuff courage
since none of us wanted to take the initiative..
den we shall forget it..
is that wad u think?
i dun wan to lose u
but, u r forcing me to..

as quotes had say,
there r many fishes in the sea..
to me,
my edition
there r so many cows in the farmland
but y does i choose u
r u tt special?
mayb it is..

jus now had conference with mag n baomu..
a short one abt tml's stuff..
mag for the first time..
say sumtink which does not brk my heart or anything
but for the first time..
she say he is very useless..
at this moment,
the odds is 4 to 0
and 1 on the neutral (and tt's me, obviously!)
shall start collectin votes soon..
shant disclose hu r the ppl in my vote..=]

freaky

2005-06-28T21:52:00.000+08:00

these following pic took durin BHF'o5..
coutesy of Ling Wei and Denise..

the x-snrs
[Christina.Michelle.Yue Ying]

the clarinets

the cornets

fadlin!

35 piece band of my band!

SeMbwInDs aT pAraDe

little byran with the card holder!

the student conductor of the day[before parade]
Leroy`

Leroy after parade

the drum major of the day[during parade]
Zati..

Zati after parade`

ok..tt's all folks..
anyway suppose to catch a movie
with mum, JiEyI, her mum, Ning, Ning's mum, Hui Xin and Mrs Yow
but sumthing cropped out lahx..
haix..

so stayed back in sch..
went to the music room..

had to go to take my hp..
but damn mi forgot to take the cover with mi then.
den Joan n JiEyI had to wait for mi
in causeway while i went home n take..
aRgH!
den u koe wad..
the shop close when i went there..

oh ya!
i wanna thnks Kiat, Yvonne n Shi Hui for the prestn..
thnks!
n of cus Ren Jie for the wallet
thou is the second bdae present u gave me this yr=)
thnks!!
i am breathing the air - oxygen
for 17 yrs 2 weeks n 1 day!

today, is ning's 8 mths
it been so fast tt almost a yr had gone
but u will nv b replaced..

missing him!!
today,
i saw a bird nest on ur head!
omg!
>.<

cOnGrAtS!!!

2005-06-27T21:21:00.001+08:00

*clearing my throat*
ahem!

i wan to declare tt
MY BAND SEMBAWANG SEC SCH BAND
OSO KNOWN AS SeMBWINDS
WON BALLOON HAT FESTIVAL AGAIN!!!
N IT IS THE TOP PRIZE
CONSECUTIVE 2 YEARS!
WOO HAA!!

but i m not as happy as last yr
maybe becus i m not in this yr :(

anyway, i love S*mbwinds!!!
gonna try better nxt yr!!! =)

first day of sch..
like tt lor...
kept thinkin how the results will b like
new topic on chem n maths..
boo hoo!
forgot to bring my report book
=[
argh!!

i m too overjoyed by the results of BHF!!
wahahaha!

this headache had been killing me!!!

anyway, fiona thnks for the present! =)

pss!
ur bdae badge says,
u r sumone hu is faithful in love..
but does the love still persists on?

big feast?

2005-06-25T23:28:00.002+08:00

I dun want to lose you
But I dun want to use you
Just to have somebody by my side,
And I dun want hate you
And I dun want to take you ,
But I dun want to be the one to cry
And I dun really matter to anyone anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there is a danger in loving somebody too much
And it is sad when you know it is your heart you cant trust,
There is a reason why people dun stay where they are,
Baby sometimes love just aint enough.

I could never change you,
And I dunt want to blame,
Baby you dun have to take the fall.
Yes I may have hurt you,
But I did not desert you,
Baby I just want to have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder,
It makes me feel like a way
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something is gonna change.

And there is now way home
When it is late at night and you are all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
There beside you where I used to lay.

Sometimes Love just aint enough - Patty Smith

try to complete my holis hw
in mos today with jo..
ended up my mp3's batt was flat..
n my hw is done..
leaving geo at home..
wanted to go home n take
but then..haix..
nobody's home
n i gt no key!
aRgH!
went down to granny's hse...

wanted to go out with Joan..
but the both of us r short of CASH!!
that's the stupidest thing
u will ever do..
no cash = no shopping!!
argh!!!

so had to stay at cousin's hse..
i looked at u..
u looked at mi..
haix..
rotting in progress!

so it was late afternoon
when simone came over..
started our chat abt ppl
gossiping time..
nahx.. =X
nth but guys.. =X

den she went off with cousin wee
for sum company stuff STEAMBOAT!
while mi, qiang, ying, aunt boye n aunt juan
went to swenses at thomas plaza for dinner cum ice cream..
i m full!!
n do u koe wad's the lamest thing
my cousins ask the other..

Ying : wad is the name for Father Christmas's wife?
Qiang : duno
Ying : Mother Christmas!

i was like wad the!?!?!?

n guess wad's up next on the list?
durians at cousin wee's hse..
seriously i m terribly full..

i tink i m gaining weight
tt's good!
cus it seems i lost sum weight
during the field trip..
erm... =X

if only u koe how to appreciate ppl around u,
ur world will b much more better then u tot of..

diasater!

2005-06-23T22:45:00.000+08:00

it is havoc!
my day is havoc!
first, my specs broke!!
second, my hp!!
wateva!!

went back for band in the afternoon
i rather b in sch in band
than b slacking at home!
=[
boring!

after band went to makkan dinner
n headed to causeway point with jo
to repair my ~~damn~~ phone
while she go to get her e700a..

haix..
guess wad the guy said abt my phone
i cant believe it man!
it is only less than 4 months old!!
damn!!
okiie..so this is wad the guy at the counter say..
"ur hp is at the 3rd stage.."
wad the!!
5th stage n my phone gonna say,
"Bye Bye.."
fcuk!
wad is the prob, man!?

n if i sent tt to repair right away
i m gonna survive my days without hp
for abt 4 days..!!! ArGh!!
it stinks n life sucks without hp!!!

went back to sun plaza for my specs
argh!
i m so blind even with my old specs!
i simply cant see anything..!!
as blind as a bat
tryin on diff type..
the titanium one, the frameless..
argh!
damn my clumy-ness
which leads to the brk-up of my specs!
if i had not place my specs in the bath room
n if i b more gentle with the plug of the hair dryer
tt ~~damn fcuking~~ plug will not hit my specs
n my ~~damn fcuking~~ spec will not brk..
aRgH!!
it sucks big time
when u had to depend on ur old specs
which the degree is so much more
far diff from the present one!!!
living my life as blind as a bat

living in the world
tat i dun even koe
if u still do exist here
from wad i see in u today,
u totally changed..
nt attitude
but the way u present urself..
it is no longer the u tat i koe..
sometimes i wish i gt the courage
to tell u the things tat had been
hidden in my heart all these while
but the time is not right..
tat point in time,
i can do nth but see u walked away...
drifting n further off my sight..
if there one thing i could undo
n tat is the way i treat u
after that day..
but wad done is done?
no one could save the day
like Batman or Superman..
both of us r just normal human beings

tell her tat u still like her the way u used to..
don go around tell ppl u like her
when u told her tat u hate her..

her feelings she hide
she's broken inside
she is lost n now
she cant find wat u left behind
her dreams she cant find
she's losin her mind
she's fallen behind
she cant find her place
she's losing her faith
she's fallen from grace
she's all over the place
she's lost inside
for her there's only u
nv had expected
how she could carry on
without ur love

sad mi..new mi

2005-06-21T18:47:00.000+08:00

i jus add a new song to my bloggie..
nice? suit ur ears?
but it is a tears-rolling one..
i m almost tears
upon hearing it..
haix..=(

shld start my day fresh
a new chpt of my life
looking forward myself
to a new mi!

jus now went out with Rina n Vonne
to Jurong Point
to get Roy his bdae present
he will b 17 this sat!!
woohoo!

Royson~
ur bdae present not cheap hor..
mus treasure it, u koe!
really not very cheap hor!
hope u like it! =)

den went back to smb shop
to study with
mich, asrol, hanafi n sufyan..
we becum so slack after awhile..
n we start to do sum lame stuff
like naming the ppl in our class
after the 12 zodiac..

the 12 zodiac animal of 5a1!
*no offence!*
Mouse - Leonard
Ox - Asrol / Hanafi
Tiger - Janice/Naveen
Rabbit - Maggie
Dragon - Wes
Snake - Raiza/Aini
Horse - Erfy/Sirat
Sheep - Zubaidah
Monkey - Alvin
Chicken - Si Hui/Janice
Dog - Sufyan/Fadli
Pig - Mich

my creation of Winnie n Fren:
Pooh : Asrol / Hanafi
Tigger : Alvin
Eeyore : Willey
Piglet : Michelle

i believe in giving chances..
i say lots of words for u
i defend u..
whenever my fren said bad things abt u
but this is outrage n out of touch
u broke my heart..

now, i cant defend u anymore..
i shall listen to my fren now..
u r no longer the guy i koe..
where is the lil'papaya tt i used to fall for?
u looked like a beast..!

my heart aches jus now
when the mrt pass by one place
where we used to have fun..
i nearly cant control my tears..
u had hurt mi alot..
how i wish i had not koe u
how i wish i had nv enter this sch..
u bring mi nth but tears..
dun tell mi u been lying to mi
n fooling my feelings..
is so,
u r really a great big jerk!
If so,
why u say tt in the first place?
i really had no intention to wait for u at all
but is ur words tt make mi stay..
now, u wan mi to leave ..
wad is it all abt?

jus like wad Sirat told mi
"u tink it is worth waiting for such a guy hu made u cry even b4 any relation start"

wad de!?

2005-06-20T20:21:00.000+08:00

i wish to stop counting de days
cus i finally realise he is such a JERK!
mus blame myself for been blind
for the past 7 mths!!!
n on my wishful hope
i tot of telling u
Lets' Ride again..
wad the hell!!
now i koe where i shall go!!
LOVE IS BLIND!

and god damn it..
ytd i lost my favourite slippers!!
FCUK tat person hu steal it..
i mean..sumone is fcukingly
nth to do..
cum my unit n stole slippers..
y dun u jus take my flips flops
n leave my tt black slippers alone..
!!!!!

went causeway to chck abt the HP stuff
my hp which i bought less than 4 months
is spoilt!
first - the hp auto shut down
second - i on the vibration but it is nt vibrating when i recieve calls or sms
third - hp hang!
four - i didn on the loudspeaker n it was lowered to the min volume..but the speaker the other end was talkin so loud..
ArGh!!

had chem lesson today
combine with 4e1 ppl..
but pathetically only 7 fr my class attend
just me, sharon, song wai, alvin, sirat, BK n Mark

basically i went crazily mad
abt him..
he jus simply sucks!
n i wan to repeat this
he is a jerk!
i was tokin to Alif when
he told mi sumtink abt tt ______.
aka lil'papaya..
aRgH!
i was like stunned!!
why do u tell mi this now
why does this olways happen
when i wanted to giv up sumone!!
why?
but hope he dun..
as it is the past ..
now it is the present!

god bless..
=)
he ~~sucks!~~
u r no longer the guy i koe
no longer the guy who i fall for..
u simply sucks!

shopping!!

2005-06-17T22:14:00.000+08:00

courtesy of Zhi Xiang - Yong Xin's bro..=)
_tat the pic we took outside CH hotel_

156 days..
i am wondering why
thinking of those happy times with u
brings me tears..
i am wondering why
thinking of the those times we argued
brings me laughter
come again,
we used to play around like
3 years old kiddos..

anyway..
a day of shopping
i m back to my shopping life
went town
with Xing Lin,Dez,Xiaomei n Kelly..
bought myself a pair of earings
and a roxy skirt..
tot of buying one roxy shirt
but there is no size of mine..=(

tml is rick's burfdae
happy bdae boy!
welcome aboard to the sweeter-17 ship!
*taking fr Vonne's blog*
haha..
doubt i going for his bbq
sorry brother! =(
gt sum family dinner to attend to
=/

missing u!

back home..

2005-06-16T23:35:00.000+08:00

155 days..
home sweet home!!

i am glad to announce that
I AM OFFICIALLY 17
ON 13 JUNE 2005!!

happy bdae to me!!
happy bdae to me!!
happy bdae to me!!
happy bdae to me!!

nt forgetting..
celestine, yvonne who r oso
17 this year
Sister Jia Yi 16 le!!!
sweet 16!

saw the testi jus now
that my fren drop for me..
of cus i am sad..
depressed
that he didn drop for mi any
despite me drop for him
on his bdae..
_haix_

but all i koe
before even i left Singapore on Mon
i had started to miss him..
especially when the bus
drove past his block from far..
_haix_

kk.. stop all this missing-him-stuff
let's took a ride with mi...
=]

basically 70% of the overall trip
is sitting on my butt..
i mean on the bus..haha..
took lots of photos..
anyway..
AT LEAST my frens do rmb my bdae..
=X
they wished mi once i met them
so nice-y of them!!
thnks!!!! =D

so the first day
we went to visit the forest..
feeding mosquitos time!
had the first experience
with the firefly at Kuala Selangor..
they seems so fake
but they r so adorable!!

Second day..
was so silent..
can i say that..
we only visit one place
n then we sat on our butts
all the way up to Cameron Highlands..
n the one and only place is
the Padi n Oil Palm plantation..
had sum pics taken
when we reaching CH..
the Isk waterfall- air was fresh!!
cool!

anyway, the CH hotels r much better =X

third day
a visit day ~ aunties!!
market gardening - plantation
tea plantation, strawberries farm, flowers nursery..
long brk in between..
so the girls r in the room -slacking!
n having some girls tok!!
-peace-
had a night walk to the Pasar Malam
after dinner..
ate ROTI PRATA!
n i vomitted..
gosh!
watch sum horror vcds..
n slept..

fourth day
visit the Minister offices...
big building..
nice design..
gosh!
headed back home
i am so eager to go home!!
had late-dinner with
Sirat, Hanafi, Nazzer n Mich..
too full!
aRgH!
i shld start looking into my diet!

so i am back home..
missing him, my bed, my pyjamers Tigger, my comp n of cus SHOPPING!
goin to shop with the girls tml..
the third thing i do when i reached home..
after unpacking my stuff n had a quick bath
is to on the comp`
guess who's online..
him..
haix..
i duno wad can i say now..
i am so confused..
the more closer we r, the more hurtful the ending gonna b..

nv b replaced

16 going on 17

2005-06-12T18:44:00.000+08:00

151 days..
you r ur own worst enemy
when u act against ur conscience

do my last-min shopping
for tml field trip..
bought myself a bag..
ArGh~
i am sick and tired..

gosh dun make fall sick this time round
when i am less than
6 hrs to my 17th bdae
and my geo field trip..
=
don think been 17 is olright...
just hope that
everything is far better..
life after been 17..
17 seems to b an unlucky number..
mayb i am thinking too much...

had a fone chat with jess jus now..
so she came up with this idea of
exchanging ourselves
so i will b staying in SG
while she left for Malaysia..
cool rite..
but...haix..
it is far too impossible!

falling sick soon..
gosh!
help me!!

miss him..
<3 lil`papaya

gifts and more..

2005-06-11T23:11:00.000+08:00

150 days..
do it or regret`
wanting the courage to b back...

i am hungry~

i am too early for meeting xiaomei..
went shopping around..
alone~

met xiaomei ..
for her discman n the letter`
but in the end,
i didn write finish the content..
:'[

recieved lots of presents..
=)
had a mini-party at pizza hut
it was some how a send-me-off party
lol!!!
=in total 18 of us
me,joan,rina,yvonne,jieyi,ning n xin
derrick,nigel,junwei,RJ,Dolp,Jack,Andy,Alex,Royson n Jia Hao
so sad that tam n xuan didnt join us.. ='(

recieved quite a few presents today..
RJ got me a mini-tigger!
thnks dude!! =)
Jessilyn got me a photo album..
thnks girl!
the rest of the guys gt me a necklace n a box of choco.. =)
thnks sia!!!
well the girls too,
got me a necklace and a tigger mug!!
thnks sistas!!

but i m pretty envious of yvonne..
she gt sooooooooo much POOH
for her bdae this yr!!
i am on protest!!
haha!!
pooh's pyjamers stuffie...(xin n derrick)
pooh's mug (the bros)
pooh's jigsaw puzzle!(sisters)

so envious =/
!!!!!

had a fruitful late lunch`
went back to granny's hse
with rina..
she is tired..
after a long time at church..
uh-huh..
she got to teach me sum stuff
before she forgets!! ;)

see ya guys!

2 days n i am officially 17!

missing him..
his back view..

just another shopping trip..

2005-06-06T17:43:00.000+08:00

145 days`
dun look at me in this manner..
i might not feel comfortable`

another day at sch..
n i was late!
thnks to asrol!!!
he told mi last nite,
that lessons start at 1130..
it did so happen tat i slept till 915..
n thnks god,
nazzer sms mi n told me lessons start at 930
i got to rush!
oh dear~

phew~
reached sch ground..
saw his classmates..
"don tell mi he is in sck..?"
my mind went this way..

after class go makkan with the ppls..
like mich, raiza, nafi, asrol, fad n nazzer..
walked towards sun plaza..
i saw him..
so asrol was like playing tricks or something..
aRgH~!
*dun look at mi this way!!*

went out with jessilyn
to causeway..
got myself a 3/4 pants ~~finally`~~
from S&K
phew~!
erm.. i wonder how will it b like
if i m toilet-urgent..
4 buttons to b un-button
if u jus wan to take off that pants..
!!!
i mean it is unique n special..
tat wad i like abt it..maybe?

a challenge n fear to conquer!
don go against wad ur hearts says..
it seems like a dream tat i had met u today..
unbelievable`

courage?

2005-06-05T22:34:00.000+08:00

144 days..
is not i dun wan to say,
but it is just that i m lacking of courage
even thou u r just next to me..

yes! today is finally the day for BHF!!!! =)
S*mbwinds fight!
we will we will rock u!!

yeah! s*mbwinds did rock sentosa after all` =)
hope to win this year..
it seems like we r the craziest
tt wad the MC said! =)

i tink we r the only band tt wore hawaiian tee..
the rest either wore their sch uni
or band full u or band tee
unlike last year almost all the bands r wearing..
=P

guess wad happen..
i was nearly on tbee! =P
i was folding the balloons with the others
when suddenly the camera pop out
just infront of us..
i was like gasping..
wad the shock!
secondly, the band was great fun!
shouting..got so enthu!
i was carried away
by the shouting n screamings!
so when i turned,
i saw this CNA camera directly infront of me..
i was so :$ !

S*mbwinds rocks!

i m so tanned now..
pinky me~
roasted pineapple again!!

took sum funny n funky pic with the members..
=)
great day with great fun!

anyway,
rmb abt the sck which scolded us vuglarities..
we happen to move them to our music..
they seems so high n dancing to the music
when our band is playing..
=)
tat bloody band was there too..
so it was like mi n shahirah got lost with de rest of S*mbwinds..
we happen to walk pass them..
sheesh!
hey!c'mon..
even maddie said they r damn arrogant..
jus hope they get out of here real soon.. =)
they seems so arrogant..
n guess wad we saw at mac jus now
after the whole thing..
they wore a hang ten which looks like our band tee shirt..
WTH??

=/
plain guessing everything..
he - is still on my mind..

back?

2005-06-01T20:28:00.000+08:00

140 days`
20 weeks..
turn back to me..

happy birthday to LaO`dA!!!
17 liao!!!
sOnG bO! =D

12 more days n i m 7teen..

i did one bad thing..
n that is to chabot F&N!
OMG!
tt's my the last thing on my list today..
gOsH! n i did that..

anyway, i wondered during class
right after Xing Lin sent me tt sms..
i was taken by shock..
had God answered my prayer last nite..?

he came school today..
is my mind at ease now?
jus another 4 sentences conversation..
at least better dan nth rite?

anyway, played my darling.eupho
n glad tt i knew
n i spotted that
i had lost my embrouche!
tend to go flat on every note..
thou i push.. =(
sheesh~!
many snrs too..
haix..

band had their march prac for this sun..
so, cum down to sentosa to support huh!
=)

ahbu n dez came over my hse after lunch..
while dez tried on my bermudas
which she nid for this sun.. =)
den send ahbubu home..
den sat at a lonely n quiet place to chat with big chilli!
_i m so vexed!_

came home changed..
headed to JiEyI's house..
gOt her family, mI, vOnNe, LoOnG n rInA...
choco cake..
*yUmmY!*

yes!
tml band prac is in the afternoon
yabe-dabe-doo!
*hEeX*

shld grab it!

why does the person hu shower mi love is no longer u..sadly is sumone else..

sumhow, sumtime..
i began to believe in god..
gOd bLesS...

"it is nv too late to believe in god.." tt wad rIna said..

~*~_sI.hUi_~*~